Coincidence?

Finally, it's time to take a break. It's now 3.12 in the morning. I was trying to study as much as I can. Hmm...

I was chatting with a friend before I started doing my revision. This friend asked if I believe in coincidence or the One in Heaven pre- plans everything. I told him,"No, I don't believe in coincidence." He gave me a scenario like this. "If one day your car break down by the roadside and your friend passes by and stops to lend you a hand. Isn't that a coincidence?"

Still I said it's not a coincidence because at the end of the day I will surely thank God for providing me help. I may have prayed when I'm in such situation or if my friend is a Christian, he/ she may have prayed and asked God to use them in any way. Thus, it's very hard to judge whether it's a coincidence as we do not know the unknown.

Lately I am really stressed out by my studies. Exam is around the corner and I am not well prepared yet. On Wednesday, it was my turn to share something during our weekly devotion time. I struggled so much to pick a topic to share. I had nothing in mind even after I prayed. Until the very last minute, I simply picked one and shared. It wasn't fluent as I did not prepare. I just read from the book. However, my sharing was in lined with what one of my colleagues faced for the past few weeks. Was it a coincidence? I bet it wasn't because there was a real life experience to match with what God wanted to teach us. It wasn't a coincidence as I did pray for a topic. Though I picked it randomly.

Another example that I gave was blog. The authors of blogs will not know if their posts about their lives, interest and problem will impact anyone. Some of them write because of interest and the posts maybe updates for friends and family. However, when someone somewhere starts surfing for something and so happen this person from the other side of the world comes across the blog and it then leaves an impact on that someone or motivated that someone from the other side of the world. How do you explain this? This friend of mine experienced it himself. I bet everything happens for a reason. A reason that no one knows until the puzzle of life is done.

In my life, there is no such thing as coincidence because my everyday is a gift from God. There is this quote says "Today is a gift that's why it is called "PRESENT". The fact that I am able to wake up in the morning is already a miracle, a chance to live my life again, a chance to repent and a chance to contribute. Well, no doubt, it's another chance to make mistake too. Choose your day.

No Special Love?

Here I am one again, escaping from studies to crap here. I couldn't find the answer for one of the questions. THUS...

I have things to crap, my mind is very active especially when I am under stress. It's too active until I troubled troubles then went blur. LOL!

Hmm... I got to know that one of the special adults at my work place kept calling another colleague. They are of different gender. So, something is happening in one of them. This is not the first time that my this special colleague calls up somebody that this colleague shows affections to. I got to know about it from a few of my friends who got the same sort of call from the same person.

Oh well, we are adults. As we grow we will sure fall for some one. When we fall for some one, of course we would like to always get to see that person and also wanna hear that person's voice. This is really SO normal. However, people with special needs are not encourage to have the other half most of the time. *pity them*

This colleague can call that person a few times in a day. The family don't know about this yet. And my boss also don't know about it. Maybe she knows. *shrug* Previously, some of my friends purposely cancelled the call as they did not know what to do. I think this will frighten people who don't understand and may cause them to stay away from adults with learning disabilities.

I talked to this special colleague today. I wanted to stop this colleague to keep calling and misunderstand that they are couple. Hmm... After our talk, and this special one promised not to call again. After this special one left my desk, a thought came to my mind,"this is normal for every grown ups. Even homo- sexual shows affections to their kind. Why not these adults with special needs? It's so hard to control affections. Missing somebody is not something fun. It's painful some times. Am I cruel and am I doing what is right?"

I started feeling sorry for them as they don't have a choice to love but to stop loving. I can comprehend the pain. I really wonder how is this special one gonna pass tonight. Tonight will be a long night I guess. Or may be not, as they are so used to be conditioned. Maybe this special one will be able to handle better than most of us the so called NORMAL ones? Hmm...

It's Christmas Time

The True Meaning Of Christmas

Ahh... It's Christmas time. I just can't wait any longer. Christmas time is a joyful time for me, no matter how I would celebrate it, it'll still be a joyful day for me. It's a meaningful day, a day that hope, love, joy and peace came to the earth. A day that lightened up the world.

At this time of the year, most pubs and discos will have some count down parties. Youngster will go out and have fun together. Most of the time, we celebrate it like how we celebrate New Year.

What is Christmas all about? Watch this...

And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the field, keeping watch over their flock by night.

And, lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them: and they were sore afraid.

And the angel said unto them,

Fear not: for, behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people.

For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.

And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger.

And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God, and saying,

Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.

LUKE 2:8-14

Here is another video link that will explain clearly to you if you would like to know the true meaning of Christmas. Enjoy!

http://www.christiananswers.net/hope/thehope-c8.html

Live With A Thankful Heart

This morning as I woke up, I wasn't really prepared to go to church to worship. Last night, I spent much of my time changing and editing my blog skin and layout. Then I went back to my studies. I planned to study until very late at night as I do not have much time left. But my body couldn't take it.

Frankly, I found this subject that I'm studying is kinda hard to absorb. I'm currently studying Education Sociology and Philosophy in Malaysia. The module is like a history book to me. I've a lot to remember. I thought that I dislike this subject but in fact I like it much. Just that I dislike the history and so on. Few more days to exam week. Gosh! I'm not ready at all. Have not even started doing the past years questions. This is one of the worries that I'm having. Many times, I tried to run away from studying it and kept myself busy with other things. Like now. :P

Another problem is financial. Sigh... Next semester is coming soon which means I have to pay for the fees soon. It costs me Rm1560. I was kinda worry about it and also about the new house. The renovation is almost complete. Now the house is at furnishing stage. It's about money again. Thus, I woke this morning with all these worries and I was thinking if it's possible to have increment and I was thinking to get part time jobs which is so impossible as I am working and studying. I won't have time for that.

After my shower, I left the worries behind and went to church. I worshiped and I felt like crying. But I just couldn't. Not because I was sad over what I'm worrying about but I think I'm touched to be back in church standing in the midst of all brethren and having peace and strength to sing praises to Him. I am still alive and I am still still blessed with many things.

This thought was strengthened by the message that uncle William shared on the pulpit. He was sharing about his mission trip in Myanmar. Not long ago I went to Indonesia for a mission exposure. Like what uncle William said, we only see poverty in the outskirts. He said that Myanmar is different. They can see poverty right in the center of the city. I couldn't imagine how it is like. According to him, many of the people there are well- educated. Some of them are graduates but they have no choice but to do any jobs that are available there. All because of poverty. This really struck me. Few hours ago, I was thinking about increment. Few hours later I was told that these people are not doing jobs that they are suppose to do and they are not earning much. Graduates, none of the graduates here in Malaysia would want to be a mere book-seller by the roadside. We complain about our jobs, our colleagues, the bad treatment by our bosses and so on. We are not contented at all I bet. I am one of them. The fact that I questioned about charity workers' salary, I am not contented. I claimed that I am not a person who would work for money as I won't be happy when I am just working for money, am I really not bothered by the amount I'm getting? I wonder.

As for students, they complain about their school facilities, school teachers and all. What about the children in Myanmar? Some of them can't even afford to go to schools. Some of them can't even enjoy like how we can over here in Malaysia. Oh well, don't get me wrong. I know we all have different lifestyle and all of us have our own ideal life. It's not wrong at all. Just that I felt that we should not be too demanding in certain aspects of life. We should always be thankful and feel contented with what we have. This attitude will help us be less competitive. When we are less competitive, we would less likely become the slave of money. We will be more joyful as well. At least we do not need to beg for money like the poor children in Myanmar, right?

So, let us be thankful that we are still living comfortably here on earth. Let's remember those who are starving when have so much good food to enjoy; remember the homeless when we are resting peacefully at home; and enjoy our work when some people don't even have a chance to work. We have more than what we need, don't we?