After the KL trip, I find myself getting closer with my old friends though each of us may not agree to each others' thoughts and attitudes toward lives. Well, that doesn't matter at all. One thing that I find we missed is the quiet understanding in terms of our belief. What I mean is, when we face prablem, we can only listen to each other, of course, I can pray for them if I know of any complication, but they can't pray for me. I find it hard to use this phrase also because I'm afraid I may offend them though I still pray for them when i get to know of their problems.

If only we share the same God, having the same mission and vision. We will be able to make a difference in our relatiohship as well as in our lives. Is that gonna happen?

Congratulations!

Wan Keen and Earnie Poh. Both are Autistic and both are the cutest! They are very innocent and sincere. Hahaha... We as in wan sian, Jervin and I played with Earnie at the River Adventure that day. We were on the float. At first we floated along together but in a while, we were separated with a gap. Then I pretended to cry for help from Earnie. He intended to help us but he couldn't. Then he asked Jervin to help. He kept stretching his hand to reach us. He is just too cute!

Look at them.

Fake smiles!

Wan Keen and Jacob. Jacob is another Autistic. He is a Swedish.

The day when she got her prize. She was the lime light that day. According to my mum, Wan Keen was so touched that she nearly cried.

The lady on the left is Ms Sim. She is a very supportive officer.

Look at her smile. So fake or was she playful? Haha...

This is so nice! They are really mother and daughter.

Art Lesson

Wan keen's first drawing lesson. Teacher is scolding a boy who "mencontengkan" the wall.

Second lesson- Senaman

3rd lesson- Dream... Notice the blue colour area, there'a a boy sleeping there.

4th lesson- washing up in front of the mirror.

5th lesson- Little Mermaid. She loves this very much!

A Grumpy Monday

It was a grumpy Monday! Wan Wai woke from the wrong side of her bed!

There was an agel whispering to her, controlling her from being irritable and annoyable.

However, there was a devil whispering and encouraging her to be annoyable and irriable. she'd had enough from them!!!

Arggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After the scream, she felf much better! That's her Monday.

Thank God it was a peaceful one!!!

My KL Trip

I finally came back from KL. I went there for my secondary school friend’s wedding. I went down with 2 other friends by bus. So we went straight from work. I left earlier from my work so that I got to bath before the journey. I got to rest for half an hour too. I was quite lost and reluctant to go because I did not know what to expect. Almost all of us did not know the many of the details. We are supposed to torture the bridegroom. So 3 of us discussed a bit on the bus.

When we were on our way, we discovered some problems. We found out that we need to be at Times Square by 7.30am. and we planned to stay at another friend’s house which is located at Sri Petaling. 3 of us thought that we couldn’t make it that early so we rented a room at Berjaya Times Square.

When we got into our room, my friends started to enjoy their KFC. I did not get anything to eat because by the time we reach there, it was already near 10pm. KFC was closing. A lot of food also sold out. I was very lost when I reached our room. I did not know what to do. I walked in and out. I kept asking my friends what to do. My friends entertained me because they did not know that I’ve this problem. Once I’m lost, I do not kno what to do first. I felt funny because I seemed helpless and they tried to help me. Then I kept laughing. Yeah, *crazy* I know.

Also because we were supposed to celebrate another friend’s birthday, but because of our late arrival, we couldn’t get any cake. Secret Recipe was closed, most of the shops there were closed, even the Hotel’s café also closed. There were a lot of changes made and we have to come to a few last minute decision.

At around 11.30pm, we went to our friend's room to watch all the traditional procedures that need to be done on my friend that night. We took some pictures with her too. And we had fun there. After that we went back to room and washed up. There were 5 of us in the room that night we shared the same bed. We chatted until 3am plus then only sleep. We talked about our relationships with our partners, and our experiences. Some of us have relationship problem and wrong attitude towards relationships. Well, different people sure handle relationship differently and view it differently as well. I am not suppose to comment on them, I can only pray for them.



Hmm... On that day, we woke up very early, some of us started preparing for the things that will be served to the groom and some of us were still lazing in the bed, I was one of them :p very tired really!



I was a cool wedding. The luncheon was at the Oriental Pavillion Restaurant at Jaya 33, PJ. We reached around 12.35pm but the lunch started at 1.30pm. I was too hungry that I got gastritis. I did not eat much there because I did not have appetite. Kok Ming arrived earlier than us. Haha... We need to make up that's why late.



KL is a place full of temptation. I'm glad that I'm not working there. Well, I can't deny that God may send me there. Hopefully not. People change when they are there, guess people there are more materialistic? Hmm... I wanna be contented!

Let Your Will Be Done

Oh man! What happened to the network? I couldn't upload Wan Keen's photos on the 26th Sept 2008! Sigh... I shall try again another time!

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Lately, my dad warned my mum for going to church and join the bible study group. He also went to church to check on her that Sunday. Hmm... When I heard about it from my mum, I became fearful and I've been praying for a gentle treatment from God. I'm really fearful and I do not know what to expect.

If my dad finds out that she's already a Christian, he will be mad! I really think that I'm not up to it. But God let me read John 11 today. A question that Jesus posted, it sounds like this: " I am the resurrection and the life, those who believe in me, eventhough they die like everyone else, will live again. They are given eternal life for believing in me and will never perish. Do you believe this?"

This chapter is about Jesus raised Lazarus from death. When Mary and Martha saw Jesus, they said the same thing. They said that if Jesus was with them, Lazarus would not have died. If you read the whole story, in fact Jesus already knew that Lazarus's sickness. He delayed His journey back to see him with a purpose. Jesus wanted to glorify God, because of God's will, He let his beloved friends grieved. That's why Jesus wept when He saw the 2 sisters and other people in sorrow.

Though he delayed His journey, He raised Lazarus from his "sleep". And everyone was happy and joy overflowed them. Same as today, God may delay our prayer no matter how desparate we are. We may need to go through sorrow, His will be done. He will only give the best to us. He will not forsake us when we believe in Him.

I don't really have faith but I choose to believe and know that I may have to go through some tough time with my mum, He will be glorified and my dad will be saved. Hmm... keep praying for us! Thanks!

Dear Anonymous

Oh now i remembered. It's not that number. It's something else. The CIMB one I answered and it was asking me to invest. The KL number I can only remember the back 3 digits, the front I couldn't and I did not get it many days already so my phone memory did not have it. But it's true that it missed call and off many times even before I could answer it. Now it's Ipoh number pulak. I called back many times, nobody answer no matter when I called. I called during office hour, I called after office hour, still the same result. *Shrug*

Who Are You?

I'd been receiving missed calls from a KL number 603-79649600/400/700. Lately, I did not see this number appear. But, I received another missed calls from Perak. The number is 605-2540629.

I feel very strange. These 2 numbers often just missed call me. I usually received it at around 10am to 11am plus minus. Some times I received it in the evening around 4pm plus. The KL number used to call me but when I answered the call, there's no sound. Even when I called back, nobody will answer the call. This is the second time I received the Perak number.

I suspected that the numbers are made from public phones. It's kinda creepy. Previously it was made from KL I still can have peace. But now, the number is from Perak. It's so creepy and scary. What can I do besides ignoring it? Would I encounter any danger? Am I being traced? Should I make a report because I feel disturbed and threatened?

YO!

Oh man, it's been a hectic and tiring week for me. Another colleague of mine fell sick. She did not turn up the whole week, left 2 of us working. I do not understand why we did a lot of walking. Our legs started to feel tired on Thursday. My legs were almost shaking when I stand up even today I still feel very tired.

Sigh... On Friday, I fought with a big size child. He is so heavy and his strength is greater than I. After that fight, my hands started shaking. Oh man! How great it is that the week is over. Hmm... Really thank God that it's another Monday soon. My colleague will be back.

And I got a tough topic to share with the youth. It's really not my passion. I got the book for So long but till this very early morning only I completed it. I just felt that it's tough for me and I thought of giving up. But, I can't let myself submit to temptation. I've no choice but to submit it to God. Thank God for impressing me with a few ideas. Hope they got the message. My job is done! I'm SO relax now!

I do not have much input this whole week. I was quite grumpy because of the busy days and a lot of other planning for next year, both personal and work. Jervin, you still owe me a theme wall idea. I need help. See you tomorrow, so let me know the idea. If can give me a draft of the theme wall, more than one also can. haha...

Kledang

Yesterday, 6 of us went to Bukit Kledang. Supposed to have 7 people but but dropped because he couldn't wake up. My sis and I woke up at 5.30am in the morning to get ready. Well, I know people will say that we are crazy because we woke up to bathe and wash up. Hahaha... Some people would feel that we are wasting water because since we are going to sweat why still bathe? Umm... It's our habit. I'm not sure about my sis. Maybe she is not that particular like me. If I do not bathe, I'll feel very uncomfortable.

We started our way up at around 7.30am. haha... Somebody was late :P We started from the Bald Hill. I never like using the steps to go up because I'll use up my energy very fast. But yesterday I was fine. I was very excited and happy.

This Wan Sian, she was walking backward. Her friends were behind her. Hehe... She has got good stamina and she felt nothing going up hill as she always does in her uni.

Jervin got bored and challenged my sis to run up the hill. There, they were running and laughing and pushing each other and I was laughing behind them. Fei Wong and the other 2 girls were still behind us.
Then they reached a slope and they were interested to know where it leads to.
So they went up there to spy but found nothing.


Here's their silly faces after spying the small hill.

The weather was good that day but it was getting hot and glaring as we start going down the hill.
This was one of the paths that we passed. Without this picture,
I did not know that the path is so narrow.


These are the Elim Chinese youths. Jervin brought the two gals.

This tree let me thought of Joseph's bundle of grains. It was one of his dream. he dreamed that he and his brothers were tying bundles of grains in field. Joseph's bundle stood up and theirs bowed low before it. This made his brothers hated him more .

Where is Fei Wong? Can you see him? Where is he? is he lost or is he coming down?

There he is! Haha... Taking his own sweet time to walk down the hill when everybody else were way down the hill. haha... He said he broke his record. Usually he walked on Tar not the Bald hill. he said he usually walk until the waterfall only. but this time we walked from the Bald hill and with all the steps and yellow soil. Haha... he refused to walk on the steps after we finished the first stage. He said he felt like passing motion. Haha... He brought Vitagen and herbal tea also. I thought he brought 1 bottle but NO, he brought the whole of it, you know the 5 in 1 packing? I was like... AIYO... kinda expression.

There, can you see the Vitagen bottle? My sis took 2 bottles. Look at this picture, guess which pair of legs are Wan Sian's? And which pair is Jervin's? Well, it's quite easy right? Look at how she sits? Jervin always teases her for being rough. When he teased her, she'll start beating him.
I had a great trip though we did nothing much. Hmm... I felt so good after the walk. We also went to the market to eat. Umm... when I reached home that day, it was already 11.20am. Phew, this the longest hill climb I've ever had. Thanks guys for the fun!

Faces that are Unforgetable

We visited Yong Ming today. He was admitted since last night around 8pm plus. Before we were there, doctor already took his blood 8 times. The docotor took his blood another time when we were there. Everytime when his blood was being taken, he'll sure cry. I'm sure this hurt his parents alot. His cry made the situation worse. I went in to the room where they took his blood together with the parents. He really cried and cried and cried. I nearly wept also. We bought a windmill for him. He loves it. I'm so glad that the windmill brought him joy at least for a while.

This is Hugo. He was just discharged from the hospital also. He is now 5 years old. But he had already gone through more than 10 times of intestine operation. I'm not really sure of his intestine problem, I just know that his intestine is not straight that's why he couldn't control his bowel. And he always has problem with his bowel. This year, since he was recruited in the programe, he had diarhoea twice. He was very chubby and fatty when he came to our center, now he's getting thinner and thinner.

When he came to us, he's always slow in his movement. We taught him to run and now he can run and he enjoys running. He will surely smile when he runs. He gives me joy very much. I just can't help but to smile from the bottom of my heart. His mum is already a grandmother. Haha... His parents divorced too.

Pray that God will bless them richly. And may they know that there is a loving Father above watching over them and love them.

Cirque du Soleil- The Dreamer's Odyssey

Cirque du Soleil story is about a group of people who wanted nothing more than the freedom to dream a dream. Beginning with a young man from Montreal called Guy Laliberte`, it's the tale of individuals who have come forward at special moments in time to make that dream come true, and share it with the world...
http://www.cirquedusoleil.com/CirqueDuSoleil/en/story/default.htm

This morning I watched this circus performance, Quidam (Air of Life), which really touched my heart so much. Well, I don't really understand the story but I was amazed by how they brought out the story from the costumes to the skills and the idea of the whole performance. Well, I'm not sure how many people would like this kind of performances. I like it. After watching, I decided to go online to read about their histories and how it came about. A circus without animals, a circus with story, a circus that is full of expression. I salute the founders of this Cirque du Soleil. They are really great.

This is one of the most amazing stunt for me because the female is holding up the big guy!
It's really worth watching, it's a dramatic circus! It's cool!!!

This scene is one of my favorite part! They need a lot of concentration to make it a successful one. They REALLY need to be very focus. It's like our life, once we lose our focus, we will have no direction and no purpose in life. who would be our focus? God. Only God can provide us the right path and give us our needs. If our focus is on money then we'll become slaves of money; if our focus is on lust, then we'll become slaves of lust; if our focus is on people, we'll become slaves of disappointment; if our focus is on feelings, we can be betrayed by our feelings, because our feelings could be wrong. Well, are we focusing on the right thing? If not what should we do now? How are we gonna get our focus right? May this help us reflect on our lives thus far :) God bless!

You Both Spiced Up My Days

The table was alive again last two days. Guess what? Haha... Yeah, my sister and Jervin was back to the center to help. It really made a lot of difference when they are around. The center will have more noise, more laughter and more "semangat". The place will be livelier and there are more people to have lunch together.

Whenever there's time, my sister will start practicing her bandaging skill. She kept bugging us to lend her our hands and legs and head and... to practice. And she always says," Tidak mencapai objektif." because she failed to dress our parts perfectly.

Well, nobody lent her any parts of the body, she will start dressing her own, Happily? hahaha...

This is Jervin. We were eating "rubbish" today. My sister started eating Mamee in the morning, then before lunch was me and during lunch one of my colleagues and Jervin took and before work dismissed, my sister and Jervin took the Mamee again. Haha...

It was a free day. It can be a good thing and it can be a bad thing because when it's too free, I found the day passed too slowly. Maybe I was anticipating for the long break la. They finished our work actually. Maybe by force haha... Really thank them so much to come to help as one of my colleagues was away! They left the center for few months and the children couldn't remember them. One of them called them uncle and auntie when the child greeted them goodbye. That was really funny because some body was teasing some body else and thought that he looks very young. Who knows he is in the same category to the child :P

Hey guys, really thanks so much for dropping by to help. I really enjoyed your presence and your presence spiced up my days! I long for more people to come to work in the center. Sigh... need motivation some times.

Pray for Yong Ming

Yong Ming is a slow learner. What made him a slow learner? It was because of his health problem. Since birth, his intestine is outside his body. If you notice, his tummy is a bit bloated. When he was young, almost all of his days were spent in the hospital. He had less chance to learn skills that he should learn and due to his weak body, he was not able to cope. He is very fragile. His mother takes care of him very carefully especially when there is game. Children tend to push and run. He cannot fall because he may hurt his intestine.

We saw it on his tummy. There's a layer of skin covers it. His mum said before the skin grew, the intestine was exposed. He can only go for operation when he turns 12 years old. Today, he came to the center telling us that he will leave earlier to visit the doctor because his skin turns yellow. He looked like a golden boy today. His mum was and is still very worried about the change of his skin colour. He needs to go for another blood test tomorrow morning at Hospital Ipoh.

Sigh... I hope that he will be fine. He's a very cute and smart boy. We all love him very much. I like to hear him talk, his voice is very gentle and very cute. I like to play with him also. Please do pray for him. Hope to see him back to the program next week!

Dora the Explorer

This is Princess Dora. This was made by Plasticine by wan keen. She did it while she was watching some VCDs on the computer. Besides drawing, this is one of her entertainments at home. I found myself clumsy at doing this but my colleagues will feel that I'm very creative. All these I learned from her. It's God who gave me this sister with overflowing talent that I am able to learn from her!

Her drawing lesson teacher always says that she is a very happy child. Whatever she draws or make will have a happy face. She often wants all the people around her to be happy also, of course, especially when she has done something wrong. Haha... She got her certificates and prizes already. That day was so happy. She had a ceremony by the school for about an hour. Too bad I couldn't be there to rejoice with her.

Another Sunday

Finally the Sunday school closing item is up! Phew! I'm so relieved. I took months to prepare, only until yesterday I completed the whole thing. I was trying to think about it at home, at work but still I couldn't concentrate. At work, not like last time, I'd a lot of time to do all these stuff. Now, I'm almost fulled the whole day. Maybe on and off I'll have more time to rest like Monday and Thursday before afternoon sessions starts.

Hmm... I thought about the item when I was driving most of the time. Until yesterday I finally decided to go church with my sister and locked ourselves in a room to think of the sequence etc. I felt so tired after we spent our day there.

Well, today we had a good discussion with other Sunday School teachers and the children. Some of them grew so tall and some young ones that I do not know are so small in size. I'm so happy to see them gather together! All the props are easily found as we have these teachers who are so sociable and resourceful! So glad! Two is better than one seriously if not I'll die straight in the class. Hmm...

Next week, we are gonna start the practice. Guess I'll dream of them very often like yesterday!
I dreamed of the practice last night. Hahaha... When I hear the song, I felt like vomiting. A but stressed but I enjoy it very much. I just love doing this!

It's another year, I hope that students will stay in my class. Some of them are not regular. In fact they did not learn very much also. I do not see a point to move them up. Well, intended to teach them about Jesus this year, we did it and hope they will have a rough idea about it as they grow. Also hope very much that they will not forget that they had accepted God.

Lord We Lift Your Name On High!

I had hiccups since yesterday morning. It came when I started coughing. It came quite late. I couldn't make it go no matter what I did. I drank so much water it was still there. I held my breath it came back after a while. Only when I nearly slept it disappeared. When I got up, once I coughed it started again.

Worse thing was I had promised katan to be back up singer. When he asked if I could sing before that evening, I said I still can. Who knows that hiccups came. I was quite worried about it and wanted to tell him that I couldn't make it but I was not able to tell. When we practiced till the last song I really couldn't sing.

Before the real thing I still had hiccups. I asked for Kok Ming's opinion. We both were afraid that I last minute pulled out will discouraged him ( well, not to say you are easily being discouraged or I'm important, it's sense of responsibility and support). In my heart, I prayed that God will take the hiccups away during that short period of time. When I breathed, I breathed very carefully. True enough, God took the hiccups away for that period of time. Then it came back again after that. Though I made a few mistakes as I wasn't very sure when to go in (sorry), still I was amazed by God. He could just answer prayer so quickly. Thank God for Bernice also that she was there to help! Great!

The hiccups stopped till I took the porridge. Phew! Today I still feel very dizzy but I'm joyous because I am VERY sure that God is with me. God make things happen and God is just so amazing. Indeed, when our hearts are focused on God no matter how good or bad the situation is, God will only make it better. LORD WE LIFT YOUR NAME ON HIGH!

Yes! God made it happen and I'm so encouraged by the children in my class. Today is the first time I used power point to present the lesson. The children were so attentive. I think they were very excited. They couldn't sit. Most of them stood to listen to the story until it finished. I got this idea after reading a book written by a mother with a Cerebral Palsy child. I did not really have the courage to do that, it took time to do it plus I do not have Streamyx or any broadband. So to download certain pictures really need to wait quite long. Well, no problem because the outcome is so good.

Today was the first time I led them to accept Jesus as their personal savior too. All of them want to accept Jesus. They raised their hands when I asked. I do not know how much they understand but I assured them that God can help us, God can make us whole again. I felt so touched when I saw their hands. I really felt like crying (for joy).

Then we prayed and they all prayed very well with me. Nobody was making any unnecessary noise etc. Really thank God. Hmm... So glad.

Thank you God for all this things that you have done for us that we are able to call you Father, Savior and Friend. Take care of the children and may the seeds that were sown in them grow firmly in You and You alone. Take away anything that may block them from knowing You deeper and use us mightily too to help them through this journey. Amen.

Please go back to where you belong

Hmm... This is a dog which came to our center as a shelter for itself. It came on Thursday and I was kinda lost. It refused to leave the center and it just stayed under the sink where our children wash hands and brush teeth. We were very afraid that the children would accidentally step on it's tail or whatever. When we got near it, it'll wag its tail and it's a tame dog.

I really cannot let it continue to stay around our place because it's not hygienic to have it there as the children are weak. Who knows, the dog may carry some germs or sickness or whatever that's bad for our kids. So I called up a parent who would have a chain. I borrowed it from her and chained it at the back gate. When my class finally finished, I took it out to the main gate and chased it way. It refused to walk to the main gate. It just braked there and did not want to move at all. Managed to push it and pull it with the help of Michelle and the guard. So I thought it was the end of the dog chapter. Guess what?! It came back and stayed at the same place yesterday! Oh man!!!

I really scratched my head and I chose to ignore it. It really stayed there without walking around the whole day until we dismissed from work. I hope it will leave when we get back to work on Monday! Sigh... Frankly when I chased it away the other day, I was quite upset. Sigh... It became the lime light in the center. Most kids love it but some are afraid of it. What should I do?

A day began with much harassments, with many tests of patience. Don't you know that I've already got used to it. I just do not you pulling my shirt suddenly and always do not wanna let go. My face turned "black" when this was done to me. Hmm... What do you want?! But today was the first time you wanted me to pull you up from the floor. It was the first time after so many years.

You kept laughing and I did not think that it was funny at all. Didn't you notice that nobody laughed with you? Were you laughing at me, thinking that I'll lose the battle and you will always win? No, not this time. I got you to pick up every single thing that you threw, remember? You think you win? Dream on!

Some times silly thoughts came to my mind. Like this one, today I was teaching her and she kept on "abusing" me. I was like "what's new?" And my spirit was tempted to have a "spirit fight" with her. Erm... I do not know what's "spirit fight", I simply name it and some times she could feel what I was thinking and then she will challenge me. Only both of us will know. She is very good at it some how. I've been so careful but she finally got her chance to harass me!

Okla, okla! You win!