I know I do Miss You

Today finally I was able to have Kok Ming with me during, though not worship, but during the sermon time. ( I know that was part of worship, I mean, if you understand what I mean). He left me for 2 weeks and once he was back we managed to meet to buy the drinks for BUG and then we had drinks together for a very short time only.

The next day WE did not expect that we couldn't meet. We had a brief lunch together (thanks for the effort) and he told me that he was on call. Oh well, he just came back and we did not really have much time talking to each other and then he went on call.

Of course I do not like it. But i have to accept it and learn to live with it. Last night somebody came to me, telling me something which I did not know about, it involved Kok Ming. And it was a very big decision kinda stuff. I handled it well, I trusted Kok Ming who would respect me before he makes any major decisions. This was not the first time this person came to me telling/ asking something which I do not know about. Not because I would feel left out, it's because I want him to include me especially when he has any major decision to make.

Last time I will jump into conclusion but after the previous experience, I learn not to trust that person. Last time, we both were angry with what had happened and same feeling arose in Kok Ming, he was quite frustrated with them. At first he thought I was mad and believe what that person said but I assured him that I trust him. There goes another test, we defeated it!

As he sat next to me today, I wanted to cry. Tears swelled. I thank God for bringing him back and I thank God for we are together!

I always believe that the quiet understanding between a couple is paramount important. Without that, anything can cause arguments. We must understand each other and listen to each other and take each others need into consideration before saying NO. I hope in the future, nothing can break us and let's continue building that quiet understanding between both of us!