The worse thing that is happening now is, there is no word for me to express my feelings. I often heard people cannot cry no matter how bad the situation is. Now I finally understand that kinda feelings. Something happened to me and I just do not really know how to tell about them. I need somebody to listen, to at least understand my feelings instead of pushing me to do things that are so hard for me. I just need listening ears, I'll have if I approach, I know. I expect them to teach me what to do instead of knowing what my heart says.

2 things that are hindering me to approach people. 1st, I don't want advice. I just want understanding. 2ndly, I don't have words. It's just hard to express myself. It's hard to find the right words. Sigh...surely God knows how i feel. Still even when I'm facing God, I don't know how to express. I just need to express it.
IN short, I just don't have words!