March

It's the last week of February now.  I'm taking a deep breathe to welcome March.  Sigh... I really need to commit myself, my whole self to God.  I have been questioning myself if the same thing is gonna happen to the same person when we start working together again.  I hope for change desperately.  *inhale* 

I thank God for the break that I had from that person since January though.   

Oh God, I'm really afraid.  I need self control when I have contact with this person.  I do not want to know how she tries to defend herself.  I do not want to be too smart to sense the lies, the excuses that she's gonna give.  Oh God please, help me through, guide me when it comes to me.  Show me the right way to settle problems, help me to be brave, help me handle my stress properly!  I'm so afraid.  Oh my dear Father, keep me in Your arms, the warmest, the most secured One that nobody can ever provide.  Father, tell me that I can do it.  I need You so much!