Reflection

OMG!!! Tomorrow is the last of the year 2009!!! I am definitely not welcoming it because when the year starts means I have to start working and studying AGAIN!!! I have not had enough of break yet!

Hmm... Looking back, a lot had happened this year. I can proudly say that this year is a fruitful year. The most memorable and enriched event for me this year is the Ministry Trip to Indonesia. I like travelling a lot but I am most joyous if I can see things that a normal trip cannot see. I had never thought that I will stay with ex-lepers in my whole life and acted on stage in a hall full of talented and gifted people. This was the family that I stayed with. They were so hospitable. I wonder how are they now.

Hmm... Besides the Indonesia trip, I couldn't remember what happened in mid- year. Hmm... I think I'm really getting old. Aha! My mum accepted Christ this year. Hopefully next year will be my dad's turn. Then our whole family can attend Sunday service together. However, I felt that I'm stagnant at work. I really hope that I can get the exchange program to Australia to see what is happening on the other end of the world and hoping to learn much from the people there.

Ah! Now i remember what happened in mid- year. I started studying. It was kinda relaxed and I was so happy because of the compliments from the tutors but it became so taxing especially when I had some other things to do in church and work. I studied until I wanted to vomit. But at the same time I experienced grace. Guess what? I did not have much time to study for the examination, thus I can only spot questions. God is so good and gracious, all the questions were what I studied. My tears nearly rolled down from my eyes at the exam hall. I am also grateful to have my sister to accompany me to the exam hall as I was not very familiar with the road. On the way, she helped me revised too. Hehe...

I typed this since 10pm plus. Now is already 12:26 am. I think these are the things that occupied my year. I am really thankful that I have enough for this year. Though there were struggles and distress at work, relationships and other minor hiccups, see I'm still in one piece, safe and sound. :)

I am not quite welcoming the year to come. There will be tonnes of challenges ahead which I am quite afraid of. But I remember what one of my friends had said before. He said that we should not be afraid anymore when we had tasted so much of God's blessings and grace along the way. Thus, I am holding on to this and I'm reminded not to be like the Israelites. I am sure on and off I will be upset because of something and some people but the most important thing to me is the attitude at the end of the day. Hmm... I am hoping that I will continue to grow to be stronger but not "colder". Oh God, please do not let my heart grow cold.