One more day to go then I will have peaceful months because I do not have to meet too many people. I'm feeling very tired of seeing the same old faces. I really need a break from them. Phew! Just one more day, even though I'm gonna be very busy for the next 2 months, I guess I'll enjoy it very much. I really will enjoy it very much.
Hmm... I'll be leaving for Sabah soon. I'm anticipating to absorb new knowledge from people from other places to refresh myself. I'm feeling dry lately. No input and do not feel like inserting anything into my mind. Sigh... It's gonna end soon though. I'm really looking forward to this break from the students and the parents. Oh God, please move the time faster. I need a break.
13 November 2008
07 November 2008
ABCdefgh.....
Oh man! It's the right time to go on MC. I'm really sick. I felt much better today just lost my voice and my limbs are weak. Sigh...
Yesterday, A started to talk about B. A said B called her and talked bad about many people. One of them was me. A said that she doesn't know how to handle this person. I was a bit mad because I got to know that B intended to dig things from people. Well, that was the impression I got because A painted it to be like that. I got that person's missed calls during noon time as well as evening time. Some how I did not get to answer B's call.
So I smsed my superior and told her that this person had been calling people around and I asked why she called me. Then my superior also felt suspicious but I did ask her not to question her first. Just in case A lied to me I said. So she asked me to call her back and see what B wants. So I called back and she just concerned about me because on Wednesday I was really sick. She intended to replace me if I can't work.
So I told my superior about her intention of calling. Many times I dared not go on MC partly because I can't let go of my work and also because I'm very afraid that after I go back, there will be problems that I need to solve and that will drain me a lot. But last night, I'd decided to rest so here I am blogging. My superior called me just now because some how she got a chance to talk to B. She found out that A did not tell me the truth. A was the one who bad mouthed people around and A was the one who called people. I was like, crap, I was the one who fell into her trap and B was the victim.
Oh goodness! A really couldn't see herself. She really thought that she was not at fault at all. Some more she twisted and repainted the real picture. She told a lot things to B which were not true. I wonder if she did same to the parents. All of us are evils but she is the angel. She even discouraged B to accept Christ but told me that her husband objected. In fact that was the wrong fact. B told us that her husband supported her and he's interested to accept Christ too.
She was the one who was discouraging people to do that. Luckily I told B not to look at human to accept Christ.
I thank God for revealing the truth that we are save from the devil which was trying to break us! God will surely take care of His work. He who started it will complete it.
Yesterday, A started to talk about B. A said B called her and talked bad about many people. One of them was me. A said that she doesn't know how to handle this person. I was a bit mad because I got to know that B intended to dig things from people. Well, that was the impression I got because A painted it to be like that. I got that person's missed calls during noon time as well as evening time. Some how I did not get to answer B's call.
So I smsed my superior and told her that this person had been calling people around and I asked why she called me. Then my superior also felt suspicious but I did ask her not to question her first. Just in case A lied to me I said. So she asked me to call her back and see what B wants. So I called back and she just concerned about me because on Wednesday I was really sick. She intended to replace me if I can't work.
So I told my superior about her intention of calling. Many times I dared not go on MC partly because I can't let go of my work and also because I'm very afraid that after I go back, there will be problems that I need to solve and that will drain me a lot. But last night, I'd decided to rest so here I am blogging. My superior called me just now because some how she got a chance to talk to B. She found out that A did not tell me the truth. A was the one who bad mouthed people around and A was the one who called people. I was like, crap, I was the one who fell into her trap and B was the victim.
Oh goodness! A really couldn't see herself. She really thought that she was not at fault at all. Some more she twisted and repainted the real picture. She told a lot things to B which were not true. I wonder if she did same to the parents. All of us are evils but she is the angel. She even discouraged B to accept Christ but told me that her husband objected. In fact that was the wrong fact. B told us that her husband supported her and he's interested to accept Christ too.
She was the one who was discouraging people to do that. Luckily I told B not to look at human to accept Christ.
I thank God for revealing the truth that we are save from the devil which was trying to break us! God will surely take care of His work. He who started it will complete it.
KL Drift
Lately a friend introduced a movie to me entitled Evolusi KL Drift. Well, I'm interested because of all the drifts. I think my friend too. Yeah, it's a Malay movie which I seldom watch any. Hindu movie could be more than that. Hehe
There's this guy in the movie who offends the gangster and they ended up having a race together. All this happen because of that guy's girl friend. He doesn't believe that his girl friend has changed. His friends around him advise him not to race with he gangster but he refuses to listen. He has his best friend to "pujuk" his girl friend for her. But his friend actually already fall in love for her. But his friend does not take any action to go after the girl but keeps helping them.
He doesn't believe his friend that he disowns his best friend. He wins the race but the gangster is not happy about the result so they kill one of his friends at the car workshop. Every one is sad over that incident but he still doesn't know his problem, he wants to look for the gangster to fight with him. He goes to the disco and finds the gangster there. They dragged him to the backstreet and wants to kill him. Fortunately, his best friend knows about it and rescues him.
Still, he doesn't accept him even after his best friend has saved his life. His best friend doesn't give up. The next day, the girl calls his best friend out. He actually refuses to meet her. But she insists. And when he sees her, he makes things clear to her that he doesn't want to get himself involved in their problems anymore. He even asks her not to call him anymore. Meanwhile, his friend sees them together and he gets angry. He beats his best friend up and he pulls the girl aside and talk. The gangster is drifting his way to their direction intends to kill the guy. His best friend notices that, quickly he pushes them aside and he himself being knocked down by the car. He is sent to the hospital and all his other friends scolds him.
The moral of the story is:
EGO can kill relationships and EGO can kill our beloved ones.
Insecurity can also kill relationships.
Who are we to control other's lives even our spouses lives. Who are we? Even God doesn't force us to obey, He gives us choices, He wants us to obey out of love. He says that He is our friend. Do we respond to a friend not out of love? Do we call somebody friend when we dislike that person at all?
"It is not a question of how much we know, how clever we are, nor even how good; it all depends on the heart's love. External actions are the results of love, the fruits it bears; but the source, the root, is in deep of the heart." -Francois Fenelon
There's this guy in the movie who offends the gangster and they ended up having a race together. All this happen because of that guy's girl friend. He doesn't believe that his girl friend has changed. His friends around him advise him not to race with he gangster but he refuses to listen. He has his best friend to "pujuk" his girl friend for her. But his friend actually already fall in love for her. But his friend does not take any action to go after the girl but keeps helping them.
He doesn't believe his friend that he disowns his best friend. He wins the race but the gangster is not happy about the result so they kill one of his friends at the car workshop. Every one is sad over that incident but he still doesn't know his problem, he wants to look for the gangster to fight with him. He goes to the disco and finds the gangster there. They dragged him to the backstreet and wants to kill him. Fortunately, his best friend knows about it and rescues him.
Still, he doesn't accept him even after his best friend has saved his life. His best friend doesn't give up. The next day, the girl calls his best friend out. He actually refuses to meet her. But she insists. And when he sees her, he makes things clear to her that he doesn't want to get himself involved in their problems anymore. He even asks her not to call him anymore. Meanwhile, his friend sees them together and he gets angry. He beats his best friend up and he pulls the girl aside and talk. The gangster is drifting his way to their direction intends to kill the guy. His best friend notices that, quickly he pushes them aside and he himself being knocked down by the car. He is sent to the hospital and all his other friends scolds him.
The moral of the story is:
EGO can kill relationships and EGO can kill our beloved ones.
Insecurity can also kill relationships.
Who are we to control other's lives even our spouses lives. Who are we? Even God doesn't force us to obey, He gives us choices, He wants us to obey out of love. He says that He is our friend. Do we respond to a friend not out of love? Do we call somebody friend when we dislike that person at all?
"It is not a question of how much we know, how clever we are, nor even how good; it all depends on the heart's love. External actions are the results of love, the fruits it bears; but the source, the root, is in deep of the heart." -Francois Fenelon
03 November 2008
Confirmed!
Another sad thing happened today. I received a phone call from my cousin. Her son was suspected to have mild Autism. I did not know how to comfort her. I just answered the questions that she asked. I told her the procedures etc then talked to my superior. Sigh... This time really confirmed that it's in the gene.
I'm quite upset because I do not think that I'll be brave enough to have my own children, which I hope to have. I also feel that I should not get married when I can't have children or I'll involve my future husband to the stream of sadness. Sigh...
Oh God, when are these going to stop? What do you want from me? I'm really tired to be sad. I'm tired to face all these again and again! I'm exhausted!
I'm quite upset because I do not think that I'll be brave enough to have my own children, which I hope to have. I also feel that I should not get married when I can't have children or I'll involve my future husband to the stream of sadness. Sigh...
Oh God, when are these going to stop? What do you want from me? I'm really tired to be sad. I'm tired to face all these again and again! I'm exhausted!
01 November 2008
Trying to Identify
I felt like crying since last night. I did not know why. Even today I also have the same feeling. I was trying to identify my feelings. Sorry to those whom I showed my mood to especially you, darling. Sigh... I did not mean it. I know something went wrong in me which I tried to ignore and tried to be optimistic. That is really not me. Some how, crying helped.
Lately, my workplace came an aunt who is attached to our center sent by Dr. Shanmugam from Hospital Fatimah. Last two days, she was assigned to help in the branch which is where I'm working now. She always praises me to be capable to keep the center in order, to keep the programme running and so on. She said I'm pretty and young looking. In short, she praised me a lot. She is 41 years old.
We chatted quite a lot of general things. I think maybe she received stress from people from the HQ. Some people there were gossipping about other people in the center. She couldn't take it that's why she indirectly told me about it. When I heard her saying that she will not let her ears lead her or influence her, I already knew what was she trying to say. But i did not make any comment.
During lunch time, again she made the same comment and I guess she found me trustworthy or she felt comfortable talking to me about that issue. She indirectly talked more about it. Sigh... So I told her not to calculate with sick people. That colleague is having depression and another one is... I do not know how to describe also. Sigh... She also knew that she has depression. So we both agreed not to calculate. Another colleague told her about another colleague as well. And they both talked about me too. They said my "boss'' favour me more and etc. The first day she came that colleague already gossips about others. Sigh... They also bad mouth my "boss". Sigh...
I think this the thing that is bothering me now. I feel very disappointed. They are not kids, they are adults. How can they do that? How can they mislead people? I'm very upset to have such colleagues. Sigh... I'm not bothered by what they talked about me but I'm upset because of their intention to hurt me. Sigh... Why do I still work there after so much stress and tedious issues? I did think of leaving since last year. But there is no other opening that convinces me to do that. Money factor? No, I'm not earning much from this job too. Just that I enjoy it minus all those jealousy and gossips. Haiz... Tired!
Another thing that just happened was I scolded a friend. My restlessness plus heard a lot of stuff that this person commented on other people. I misunderstood (maybe) that this person did the same again. I apologised after I got home. Hope that person already forgive me. I really hate myself for being such a harsh person. Sigh... I feel like dying! What am I here for?
Lately, my workplace came an aunt who is attached to our center sent by Dr. Shanmugam from Hospital Fatimah. Last two days, she was assigned to help in the branch which is where I'm working now. She always praises me to be capable to keep the center in order, to keep the programme running and so on. She said I'm pretty and young looking. In short, she praised me a lot. She is 41 years old.
We chatted quite a lot of general things. I think maybe she received stress from people from the HQ. Some people there were gossipping about other people in the center. She couldn't take it that's why she indirectly told me about it. When I heard her saying that she will not let her ears lead her or influence her, I already knew what was she trying to say. But i did not make any comment.
During lunch time, again she made the same comment and I guess she found me trustworthy or she felt comfortable talking to me about that issue. She indirectly talked more about it. Sigh... So I told her not to calculate with sick people. That colleague is having depression and another one is... I do not know how to describe also. Sigh... She also knew that she has depression. So we both agreed not to calculate. Another colleague told her about another colleague as well. And they both talked about me too. They said my "boss'' favour me more and etc. The first day she came that colleague already gossips about others. Sigh... They also bad mouth my "boss". Sigh...
I think this the thing that is bothering me now. I feel very disappointed. They are not kids, they are adults. How can they do that? How can they mislead people? I'm very upset to have such colleagues. Sigh... I'm not bothered by what they talked about me but I'm upset because of their intention to hurt me. Sigh... Why do I still work there after so much stress and tedious issues? I did think of leaving since last year. But there is no other opening that convinces me to do that. Money factor? No, I'm not earning much from this job too. Just that I enjoy it minus all those jealousy and gossips. Haiz... Tired!
Another thing that just happened was I scolded a friend. My restlessness plus heard a lot of stuff that this person commented on other people. I misunderstood (maybe) that this person did the same again. I apologised after I got home. Hope that person already forgive me. I really hate myself for being such a harsh person. Sigh... I feel like dying! What am I here for?
Study Again Soon?
I've been thinking of going back to study soon. I really hope I'll be able to do it. I hope I'll be able to cope with work and studies. I also hope that God will provide me with financial needs and wisdom and course mates that are helpful and encouraging.
My case is a bit different from my friends. I did not go into Form 6 in order to get myself into local universities. Instead, I chose a tough road which I realised it only now. I was too naive then that I did not know how to plan for my future. While I was waiting for my SPM result, I found a job at New Horizons Society which serves Special Children from age 0 to 6 years old. Before that I was actually looking for a job which is similar to NH work, it was also about children. However, during school holidays, no kindergartens are opened. So I cancelled the plan. My mum encouraged to try our New Horizons which Wan Keen was attending then. So, after the interview, I started my work. But during those time, I was having a lot of trips and other gatherings with friends. So I took a lot of leaves. Hehe...
After I got my result, I discussed with my "boss", I couldn't remember our conversation, and how she introduced an Early Childhood Education course to me. It was a Diploma course and yes, I took it up. The center sponsored me and my mum did not need to spend a single penny on me since then. I wasn't a Christian then. But it is a Christian Organisation. Weird enough, the committees were willing to send me :) My course started in May that year if I'm not mistaken. I was converted in July and I started my relationship with Kok Ming in August. My life suddenly changed. It was during that time I learned a lot of things. A lot of problems came to my life that changed me.
I worked and studied for 2 years and then I went to Singapore to attend a WeCan Conference and visited a few organisations in Singapore. I'm not sure but maybe I stopped studying for a year and I continued another course at USM Penang. I enjoyed the course very much as I love Penang and I had a few non- Chinese buddies there. I stopped another year then only attended the second level of the Special Education course. Again I enjoyed myself there and I had a few non- Chinese buddies again.
Until now I stopped studying for 2 years already. I cannot apply for local universities as I did not sit for STPM. The USM course was supposed to be a bridge for me to get into it. Now I heard that they do not have Special Education there anymore. There goes my USM. Early of this year, I had been looking for open "doors" or "windows". I've not stopped praying about it as well. Some how, I found a place which would accept me, that is OUM (Open University Malaysia). I went to the Edu Fair with my sis and took the information that I need. I started to read their website. I do not want to get any diplomas, I wanna go straight to a degree course but some how, the course that I took last time is not recognised by MCQ, formerly known as LAN. I got worried and bugged Kok Ming to go to their center with me.
I recognised it as God answered prayer because He give a way out for me in order to study Special Education. I doubted because my certificates are not recognised by MCQ. Sigh... Finally we went to confirm about it and the officer said I just need a recommendation from my "boss" and my SPM. I really hope that this is from God but not my own because I want it. If it's from God, I do not have to be afraid of anything. He will surely lay my path straight. Hmm... If it's from myself, I'll strive hard!
I need 5 years to complete, then only can get what I wanted. By then, I'm not sure I'll have the energy to study. It's tough really! But the good thing is, I've a God to depend to.
1 Corinthians 10:13
There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.
Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ who strengtheneth me.
My case is a bit different from my friends. I did not go into Form 6 in order to get myself into local universities. Instead, I chose a tough road which I realised it only now. I was too naive then that I did not know how to plan for my future. While I was waiting for my SPM result, I found a job at New Horizons Society which serves Special Children from age 0 to 6 years old. Before that I was actually looking for a job which is similar to NH work, it was also about children. However, during school holidays, no kindergartens are opened. So I cancelled the plan. My mum encouraged to try our New Horizons which Wan Keen was attending then. So, after the interview, I started my work. But during those time, I was having a lot of trips and other gatherings with friends. So I took a lot of leaves. Hehe...
After I got my result, I discussed with my "boss", I couldn't remember our conversation, and how she introduced an Early Childhood Education course to me. It was a Diploma course and yes, I took it up. The center sponsored me and my mum did not need to spend a single penny on me since then. I wasn't a Christian then. But it is a Christian Organisation. Weird enough, the committees were willing to send me :) My course started in May that year if I'm not mistaken. I was converted in July and I started my relationship with Kok Ming in August. My life suddenly changed. It was during that time I learned a lot of things. A lot of problems came to my life that changed me.
I worked and studied for 2 years and then I went to Singapore to attend a WeCan Conference and visited a few organisations in Singapore. I'm not sure but maybe I stopped studying for a year and I continued another course at USM Penang. I enjoyed the course very much as I love Penang and I had a few non- Chinese buddies there. I stopped another year then only attended the second level of the Special Education course. Again I enjoyed myself there and I had a few non- Chinese buddies again.
Until now I stopped studying for 2 years already. I cannot apply for local universities as I did not sit for STPM. The USM course was supposed to be a bridge for me to get into it. Now I heard that they do not have Special Education there anymore. There goes my USM. Early of this year, I had been looking for open "doors" or "windows". I've not stopped praying about it as well. Some how, I found a place which would accept me, that is OUM (Open University Malaysia). I went to the Edu Fair with my sis and took the information that I need. I started to read their website. I do not want to get any diplomas, I wanna go straight to a degree course but some how, the course that I took last time is not recognised by MCQ, formerly known as LAN. I got worried and bugged Kok Ming to go to their center with me.
I recognised it as God answered prayer because He give a way out for me in order to study Special Education. I doubted because my certificates are not recognised by MCQ. Sigh... Finally we went to confirm about it and the officer said I just need a recommendation from my "boss" and my SPM. I really hope that this is from God but not my own because I want it. If it's from God, I do not have to be afraid of anything. He will surely lay my path straight. Hmm... If it's from myself, I'll strive hard!
I need 5 years to complete, then only can get what I wanted. By then, I'm not sure I'll have the energy to study. It's tough really! But the good thing is, I've a God to depend to.
1 Corinthians 10:13
There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.
Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ who strengtheneth me.
31 October 2008
BBQ Fun
Wow, I just came back from a BBQ fun. I had bad days from Monday to Wednesday. Some people around me were comforting me by saying I'll have a fun day tonight so press on. However, I told them I may not have the mood to BBQ. I shared my problems with a friend and she said she'll pray for me.
On Tuesday I was having a heavy load of work. On Wednesday, it was a boring day. I shared it or updated my friend on Tuesday or Wednesday, I forgot. She prayed for me after hearing my sharing. On Thursday, God sent an "angel" to help in the center so that we would not be too busy and tired. Thursday and Friday were lighter and happier and true enough, I looked forward for the BBQ night and I enjoyed it.
I still remember, when my spirit is low, I have the desire to go steamboat and/ or BBQ. After that I'll become happier. Maybe this activity is relaxing and I'll have lots of good food that I can enjoy, so I kinda let off all the frustration and unhappiness during that time. Always feel happier after doing these activities.
Thanks for organising it and thanks for praying Wan Li! I appreciated it very much!
On Tuesday I was having a heavy load of work. On Wednesday, it was a boring day. I shared it or updated my friend on Tuesday or Wednesday, I forgot. She prayed for me after hearing my sharing. On Thursday, God sent an "angel" to help in the center so that we would not be too busy and tired. Thursday and Friday were lighter and happier and true enough, I looked forward for the BBQ night and I enjoyed it.
I still remember, when my spirit is low, I have the desire to go steamboat and/ or BBQ. After that I'll become happier. Maybe this activity is relaxing and I'll have lots of good food that I can enjoy, so I kinda let off all the frustration and unhappiness during that time. Always feel happier after doing these activities.
Thanks for organising it and thanks for praying Wan Li! I appreciated it very much!
29 October 2008
Very Random
TL: Hey, free to go yum cha tomorrow night?
WW: Who will be going?
TL: Same old people la.
WW: Where?
TL: You have any suggestion?
WW: Erm...
TL: Old Town Kopitiam?
WW: Again?!!!
TL: If not?
WW: I also don't know. Okla, Old Town! It's no choice's choice!
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Yeah, Old Town Kopitiam had been our hang out place. If we do not want to go expensive places or places without air- conditioner, this is the best choice after all. At least we know that what can we order and what are the things that are nice to drink and eat!
Haha... And the problem is we won't feel fed up even as we met so many times there. I've another upcoming meeting with primary school friends. If they ask me where to meet, I'll suggest the same place also. Hehe... Unless they have a better suggestion.
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It's has been a hectic week for me. I've been covering the work for my colleagues for almost 3 weeks in a row. I'm really feeling very tired. I do not feel like going to work but I've no choice and I can't lie to be sick and get MC from Kok Ming. I really can't do that. I can only pray for strength from the Lord and I forsee hectic months ahead! When are these going to end?
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My geese are growing very fast. They are very "ganas". If you tap on their heads, they will chase you. When they chase me, even thought they they as small as my feet, I screamed like mad. Haha... I think I'm very afraid of their beaks and their legs. I'll never touch those parts. I can't imagine when they grow to be mature geese. Where would I stand then? It's my house Ok? But they would overtake my place at home! I'll fear them instead of they fear me. Sigh...
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It's a boring day. But still praise God for a safe and peaceful day!
WW: Who will be going?
TL: Same old people la.
WW: Where?
TL: You have any suggestion?
WW: Erm...
TL: Old Town Kopitiam?
WW: Again?!!!
TL: If not?
WW: I also don't know. Okla, Old Town! It's no choice's choice!
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Yeah, Old Town Kopitiam had been our hang out place. If we do not want to go expensive places or places without air- conditioner, this is the best choice after all. At least we know that what can we order and what are the things that are nice to drink and eat!
Haha... And the problem is we won't feel fed up even as we met so many times there. I've another upcoming meeting with primary school friends. If they ask me where to meet, I'll suggest the same place also. Hehe... Unless they have a better suggestion.
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It's has been a hectic week for me. I've been covering the work for my colleagues for almost 3 weeks in a row. I'm really feeling very tired. I do not feel like going to work but I've no choice and I can't lie to be sick and get MC from Kok Ming. I really can't do that. I can only pray for strength from the Lord and I forsee hectic months ahead! When are these going to end?
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My geese are growing very fast. They are very "ganas". If you tap on their heads, they will chase you. When they chase me, even thought they they as small as my feet, I screamed like mad. Haha... I think I'm very afraid of their beaks and their legs. I'll never touch those parts. I can't imagine when they grow to be mature geese. Where would I stand then? It's my house Ok? But they would overtake my place at home! I'll fear them instead of they fear me. Sigh...
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It's a boring day. But still praise God for a safe and peaceful day!
27 October 2008
Talking about goose...
Talking about goose. Today a bunch of us went to Shakey's Pizza. We were not satisfied with the food at Shakey's and the service as well so we went to Ding Hao right after that. We were discussing about some problems. As usual I sat there listening and observing. There's this person that we know, who is very good at shooting people with words. I think none of us can beat this person and I definitely can't. So a goose popped up to my mind.
But some times when we were not in the mood and when we have to distribute work to others and when they are late to finish the task given, we will nag them and push them like a goose. I really feel that some times our attitude can be like a goose. Then my imagination went wild, my mum and dad also behave like a goose. They ask me to drink this and that, they ask me not to do this and that. I'm also a goose, I keep ordering Wan Keen to do this and that and not to do this and that. Some times to my colleagues as well. Hahaha...
"Quack, quack, quack!" Are you a goose too?
But some times when we were not in the mood and when we have to distribute work to others and when they are late to finish the task given, we will nag them and push them like a goose. I really feel that some times our attitude can be like a goose. Then my imagination went wild, my mum and dad also behave like a goose. They ask me to drink this and that, they ask me not to do this and that. I'm also a goose, I keep ordering Wan Keen to do this and that and not to do this and that. Some times to my colleagues as well. Hahaha...
"Quack, quack, quack!" Are you a goose too?
Sob Sob
Guess what are these? Hahaha... You may say they are 
my mum bought 2 baby geese for Rm 100. Expensive yes. It's very hard to find do you know that? They spent for about a month to get these 2 funny thing.
Any animals that stand on two legs are threatening to me! When my mum got them back home. I screamed like h***. I'm really very scared of them though they are still so small. Sigh... My future will be very tough at home with these two ugly thing at home.
Sigh... What to do, there have been a lot of snakes around my home. So we can only "bela" these funny thing to prevent snake and to catch snake. Sigh... I DON"T WANNA GO HOME!!!
ducklings. No, you are wrong! They are baby geese. Yeah,
my mum bought 2 baby geese for Rm 100. Expensive yes. It's very hard to find do you know that? They spent for about a month to get these 2 funny thing.
Any animals that stand on two legs are threatening to me! When my mum got them back home. I screamed like h***. I'm really very scared of them though they are still so small. Sigh... My future will be very tough at home with these two ugly thing at home.
Sigh... What to do, there have been a lot of snakes around my home. So we can only "bela" these funny thing to prevent snake and to catch snake. Sigh... I DON"T WANNA GO HOME!!!
25 October 2008
After the KL trip, I find myself getting closer with my old friends though each of us may not agree to each others' thoughts and attitudes toward lives. Well, that doesn't matter at all. One thing that I find we missed is the quiet understanding in terms of our belief. What I mean is, when we face prablem, we can only listen to each other, of course, I can pray for them if I know of any complication, but they can't pray for me. I find it hard to use this phrase also because I'm afraid I may offend them though I still pray for them when i get to know of their problems. If only we share the same God, having the same mission and vision. We will be able to make a difference in our relatiohship as well as in our lives. Is that gonna happen?
Congratulations!
Wan Keen and Earnie Poh. Both are Autistic and both are the cutest! They are very innocent and sincere. Hahaha... We as in wan sian, Jervin and I played with Earnie at the River Adventure that day. We were on the float. At first we floated along together but in a while, we were separated with a gap. Then I pretended to cry for help from Earnie. He intended to help us but he couldn't. Then he asked Jervin to help. He kept stretching his hand to reach us. He is just too cute! 
Look at them.
Fake smiles!
Wan Keen and Jacob. Jacob is another Autistic. He is a Swedish.
The day when she got her prize. She was the lime light that day. According to my mum, Wan Keen was so touched that she nearly cried.
The lady on the left is Ms Sim. She is a very supportive officer.
Look at her smile. So fake or was she playful? Haha...
This is so nice! They are really mother and daughter. 22 October 2008
Art Lesson
Wan keen's first drawing lesson. Teacher is scolding a boy who "mencontengkan" the wall.
Second lesson- Senaman
3rd lesson- Dream... Notice the blue colour area, there'a a boy sleeping there.
4th lesson- washing up in front of the mirror. 
5th lesson- Little Mermaid. She loves this very much!A Grumpy Monday
It was a grumpy Monday! Wan Wai woke from the wrong side of her bed!
There was an agel whispering to her, controlling her from being irritable and annoyable. 
However, there was a devil whispering and encouraging her to be annoyable and irriable. she'd had enough from them!!!
Arggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
After the scream, she felf much better! That's her Monday. 
Thank God it was a peaceful one!!!21 October 2008
My KL Trip
I finally came back from KL. I went there for my secondary school friend’s wedding. I went down with 2 other friends by bus. So we went straight from work. I left earlier from my work so that I got to bath before the journey. I got to rest for half an hour too. I was quite lost and reluctant to go because I did not know what to expect. Almost all of us did not know the many of the details. We are supposed to torture the bridegroom. So 3 of us discussed a bit on the bus.
When we were on our way, we discovered some problems. We found out that we need to be at Times Square by 7.30am. and we planned to stay at another friend’s house which is located at Sri Petaling. 3 of us thought that we couldn’t make it that early so we rented a room at Berjaya Times Square.
When we got into our room, my friends started to enjoy their KFC. I did not get anything to eat because by the time we reach there, it was already near 10pm. KFC was closing. A lot of food also sold out. I was very lost when I reached our room. I did not know what to do. I walked in and out. I kept asking my friends what to do. My friends entertained me because they did not know that I’ve this problem. Once I’m lost, I do not kno what to do first. I felt funny because I seemed helpless and they tried to help me. Then I kept laughing. Yeah, *crazy* I know.
Also because we were supposed to celebrate another friend’s birthday, but because of our late arrival, we couldn’t get any cake. Secret Recipe was closed, most of the shops there were closed, even the Hotel’s café also closed. There were a lot of changes made and we have to come to a few last minute decision.
At around 11.30pm, we went to our friend's room to watch all the traditional procedures that need to be done on my friend that night. We took some pictures with her too. And we had fun there. After that we went back to room and washed up. There were 5 of us in the room that night we shared the same bed. We chatted until 3am plus then only sleep. We talked about our relationships with our partners, and our experiences. Some of us have relationship problem and wrong attitude towards relationships. Well, different people sure handle relationship differently and view it differently as well. I am not suppose to comment on them, I can only pray for them.
Hmm... On that day, we woke up very early, some of us started preparing for the things that will be served to the groom and some of us were still lazing in the bed, I was one of them :p very tired really!
I was a cool wedding. The luncheon was at the Oriental Pavillion Restaurant at Jaya 33, PJ. We reached around 12.35pm but the lunch started at 1.30pm. I was too hungry that I got gastritis. I did not eat much there because I did not have appetite. Kok Ming arrived earlier than us. Haha... We need to make up that's why late.
KL is a place full of temptation. I'm glad that I'm not working there. Well, I can't deny that God may send me there. Hopefully not. People change when they are there, guess people there are more materialistic? Hmm... I wanna be contented!
When we were on our way, we discovered some problems. We found out that we need to be at Times Square by 7.30am. and we planned to stay at another friend’s house which is located at Sri Petaling. 3 of us thought that we couldn’t make it that early so we rented a room at Berjaya Times Square.
When we got into our room, my friends started to enjoy their KFC. I did not get anything to eat because by the time we reach there, it was already near 10pm. KFC was closing. A lot of food also sold out. I was very lost when I reached our room. I did not know what to do. I walked in and out. I kept asking my friends what to do. My friends entertained me because they did not know that I’ve this problem. Once I’m lost, I do not kno what to do first. I felt funny because I seemed helpless and they tried to help me. Then I kept laughing. Yeah, *crazy* I know.
Also because we were supposed to celebrate another friend’s birthday, but because of our late arrival, we couldn’t get any cake. Secret Recipe was closed, most of the shops there were closed, even the Hotel’s café also closed. There were a lot of changes made and we have to come to a few last minute decision.
At around 11.30pm, we went to our friend's room to watch all the traditional procedures that need to be done on my friend that night. We took some pictures with her too. And we had fun there. After that we went back to room and washed up. There were 5 of us in the room that night we shared the same bed. We chatted until 3am plus then only sleep. We talked about our relationships with our partners, and our experiences. Some of us have relationship problem and wrong attitude towards relationships. Well, different people sure handle relationship differently and view it differently as well. I am not suppose to comment on them, I can only pray for them.
Hmm... On that day, we woke up very early, some of us started preparing for the things that will be served to the groom and some of us were still lazing in the bed, I was one of them :p very tired really!
I was a cool wedding. The luncheon was at the Oriental Pavillion Restaurant at Jaya 33, PJ. We reached around 12.35pm but the lunch started at 1.30pm. I was too hungry that I got gastritis. I did not eat much there because I did not have appetite. Kok Ming arrived earlier than us. Haha... We need to make up that's why late.
KL is a place full of temptation. I'm glad that I'm not working there. Well, I can't deny that God may send me there. Hopefully not. People change when they are there, guess people there are more materialistic? Hmm... I wanna be contented!
15 October 2008
Let Your Will Be Done
Oh man! What happened to the network? I couldn't upload Wan Keen's photos on the 26th Sept 2008! Sigh... I shall try again another time!
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Lately, my dad warned my mum for going to church and join the bible study group. He also went to church to check on her that Sunday. Hmm... When I heard about it from my mum, I became fearful and I've been praying for a gentle treatment from God. I'm really fearful and I do not know what to expect.
If my dad finds out that she's already a Christian, he will be mad! I really think that I'm not up to it. But God let me read John 11 today. A question that Jesus posted, it sounds like this: " I am the resurrection and the life, those who believe in me, eventhough they die like everyone else, will live again. They are given eternal life for believing in me and will never perish. Do you believe this?"
This chapter is about Jesus raised Lazarus from death. When Mary and Martha saw Jesus, they said the same thing. They said that if Jesus was with them, Lazarus would not have died. If you read the whole story, in fact Jesus already knew that Lazarus's sickness. He delayed His journey back to see him with a purpose. Jesus wanted to glorify God, because of God's will, He let his beloved friends grieved. That's why Jesus wept when He saw the 2 sisters and other people in sorrow.
Though he delayed His journey, He raised Lazarus from his "sleep". And everyone was happy and joy overflowed them. Same as today, God may delay our prayer no matter how desparate we are. We may need to go through sorrow, His will be done. He will only give the best to us. He will not forsake us when we believe in Him.
I don't really have faith but I choose to believe and know that I may have to go through some tough time with my mum, He will be glorified and my dad will be saved. Hmm... keep praying for us! Thanks!
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Lately, my dad warned my mum for going to church and join the bible study group. He also went to church to check on her that Sunday. Hmm... When I heard about it from my mum, I became fearful and I've been praying for a gentle treatment from God. I'm really fearful and I do not know what to expect.
If my dad finds out that she's already a Christian, he will be mad! I really think that I'm not up to it. But God let me read John 11 today. A question that Jesus posted, it sounds like this: " I am the resurrection and the life, those who believe in me, eventhough they die like everyone else, will live again. They are given eternal life for believing in me and will never perish. Do you believe this?"
This chapter is about Jesus raised Lazarus from death. When Mary and Martha saw Jesus, they said the same thing. They said that if Jesus was with them, Lazarus would not have died. If you read the whole story, in fact Jesus already knew that Lazarus's sickness. He delayed His journey back to see him with a purpose. Jesus wanted to glorify God, because of God's will, He let his beloved friends grieved. That's why Jesus wept when He saw the 2 sisters and other people in sorrow.
Though he delayed His journey, He raised Lazarus from his "sleep". And everyone was happy and joy overflowed them. Same as today, God may delay our prayer no matter how desparate we are. We may need to go through sorrow, His will be done. He will only give the best to us. He will not forsake us when we believe in Him.
I don't really have faith but I choose to believe and know that I may have to go through some tough time with my mum, He will be glorified and my dad will be saved. Hmm... keep praying for us! Thanks!
13 October 2008
Dear Anonymous
Oh now i remembered. It's not that number. It's something else. The CIMB one I answered and it was asking me to invest. The KL number I can only remember the back 3 digits, the front I couldn't and I did not get it many days already so my phone memory did not have it. But it's true that it missed call and off many times even before I could answer it. Now it's Ipoh number pulak. I called back many times, nobody answer no matter when I called. I called during office hour, I called after office hour, still the same result. *Shrug*
11 October 2008
Who Are You?
I'd been receiving missed calls from a KL number 603-79649600/400/700. Lately, I did not see this number appear. But, I received another missed calls from Perak. The number is 605-2540629.
I feel very strange. These 2 numbers often just missed call me. I usually received it at around 10am to 11am plus minus. Some times I received it in the evening around 4pm plus. The KL number used to call me but when I answered the call, there's no sound. Even when I called back, nobody will answer the call. This is the second time I received the Perak number.
I suspected that the numbers are made from public phones. It's kinda creepy. Previously it was made from KL I still can have peace. But now, the number is from Perak. It's so creepy and scary. What can I do besides ignoring it? Would I encounter any danger? Am I being traced? Should I make a report because I feel disturbed and threatened?
I feel very strange. These 2 numbers often just missed call me. I usually received it at around 10am to 11am plus minus. Some times I received it in the evening around 4pm plus. The KL number used to call me but when I answered the call, there's no sound. Even when I called back, nobody will answer the call. This is the second time I received the Perak number.
I suspected that the numbers are made from public phones. It's kinda creepy. Previously it was made from KL I still can have peace. But now, the number is from Perak. It's so creepy and scary. What can I do besides ignoring it? Would I encounter any danger? Am I being traced? Should I make a report because I feel disturbed and threatened?
YO!
Oh man, it's been a hectic and tiring week for me. Another colleague of mine fell sick. She did not turn up the whole week, left 2 of us working. I do not understand why we did a lot of walking. Our legs started to feel tired on Thursday. My legs were almost shaking when I stand up even today I still feel very tired.
Sigh... On Friday, I fought with a big size child. He is so heavy and his strength is greater than I. After that fight, my hands started shaking. Oh man! How great it is that the week is over. Hmm... Really thank God that it's another Monday soon. My colleague will be back.
And I got a tough topic to share with the youth. It's really not my passion. I got the book for So long but till this very early morning only I completed it. I just felt that it's tough for me and I thought of giving up. But, I can't let myself submit to temptation. I've no choice but to submit it to God. Thank God for impressing me with a few ideas. Hope they got the message. My job is done! I'm SO relax now!
I do not have much input this whole week. I was quite grumpy because of the busy days and a lot of other planning for next year, both personal and work. Jervin, you still owe me a theme wall idea. I need help. See you tomorrow, so let me know the idea. If can give me a draft of the theme wall, more than one also can. haha...
Sigh... On Friday, I fought with a big size child. He is so heavy and his strength is greater than I. After that fight, my hands started shaking. Oh man! How great it is that the week is over. Hmm... Really thank God that it's another Monday soon. My colleague will be back.
And I got a tough topic to share with the youth. It's really not my passion. I got the book for So long but till this very early morning only I completed it. I just felt that it's tough for me and I thought of giving up. But, I can't let myself submit to temptation. I've no choice but to submit it to God. Thank God for impressing me with a few ideas. Hope they got the message. My job is done! I'm SO relax now!
I do not have much input this whole week. I was quite grumpy because of the busy days and a lot of other planning for next year, both personal and work. Jervin, you still owe me a theme wall idea. I need help. See you tomorrow, so let me know the idea. If can give me a draft of the theme wall, more than one also can. haha...
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