I failed to control my EMO

This morning i was really very unhappy and still very angry over what had happened yesterday. I showed my displeasure to that colleague. I was really angry. My boss was around and she asked me to the office when she saw my reactions. She talked to me. Asking me to let it go. In my mind i know very well that i need to let go. However, when i saw her, my anger was like boiling water from 80'c rise until 100'c very quickly. Sigh... i cried in the office. I was really confused and did not know what should i do and how should i treat her. When i stood firm, she blamed me. When i gave in an inch, she stepped over me. My boss asked me to practice my AUTHORITY. Seriously, i really don't know how. That's why i got so upset.

My boss hugged me and she let me stay in her office to cool myself down. I was in there for 15 minutes. After that i went out. My sister was in the computer room. When i saw her. my tears wanted to flow out again. Then quickly i went to the toilet and keep myself cool again. I asked God to help me stop crying and stop my anger. Then i went out again. i treated her better than this morning. I did not cry anymore and crapped with my other colleagues as usual.

After work, Arthur, Vincent, my sis and i played Frisbee at Polo ground. It was raining and it's still raining now. We played in the rain. I felt so good. With their presence, i really let go of my sadness and i tried my best to play. Hmm..They are fun to play with though our gap is so big.

Hmmm...the most important thing that i want to thank God is, my colleagues did not avoid talking to me, they still crapped with me which made me felt comfortable and not shameful. Hmmm...i hope tomorrow i'll be better.


Love in deed is Love indeed. May be this is a great time for me to show the love of Christ. It's hard but i'll try...