I love to hear God speaks. I enjoy hearing from God. God spoke to me once again on Saturday night through Pastor Chong. My car broke down at Medan Gopeng main road that day. So i called home. I heard my dad yelling and i started to be frustrated. I waited there with my sister for almost an hour. We were hungry and we were waiting for my dad and his foremen. Before I left the center I already told my sister that I felt that something bad is going to happen.
It was raining cats and dogs. I was at the left side of the road and an ambulance passed by. I was like, Oh man, why at this time? My dad came and the foremen started my car and I've to go to the bus station to fetch my elder sister. I was not familiar with that place so I got lost and gotta make a U-turn. My dad got frustrated because of that ( I felt it's stupid). He scolded me after the whole thing.
He said he was very disappointed because we didn't know the way etc. A lot of the things that he scolded was wrong. He made wrong assumption and he ignored my feelings. I hid in my room and cried. I really felt like going out to fight back but i did not.
On Saturday night, the pastor shared on 1 Corinthians 9 again. There was one point that he mentioned: We need to let go of our right in order to save a soul. This confirmed that I did it correctly and I've to continue doing this. An incident happened to me lately, and i wanted to pursue further but somebody asked me to let go and she said subject closed. And I let it go. I did not feed my desire by pursuing the truth to justify myself. I did it! Though I was not quite happy about it.
Imagine, if i fight back, what will happen? If I keep looking for justice, what will happen? I will only show them my selfishness instead of peacemaker. I really hope that they will come to know the Lord one day!
I really thank God for this confirmation and I hope and pray that God will continue to working in me so that I can be a better person. Sigh... It's tough though!
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the world says, "this is my rights!" for the christian who has died to self says, "dead man has got no rights!" carry on my dear sis-in-christ, it's always tough but i am sure that's what christ wants u to do....he gave up all his "rights" to die on the cross for us. take courage.
yeah, thanks! This really gave me courage to move on each day especially this whole week!!!
Hurting others is an art - it is not easy. What makes you do it even when you can acknowledge that it is irresponsible?
You keep on repeating all these incidents - you can choose to be otherwise. Why not????
I think this comment is referring to the previous post. I am not sure what incidents am i repeating. But yes, I'm trying to choose otherwise by obeying my mum especially when she asks me to drink this and that, take medicine when sick etc. also taming my tongue. I'm not using me as a human as an excuse but I do make mistakes and I do stumble. Who's not, right? I'm trying.
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