I've been thinking a lot lately, about how I've been hurting people who love me in very indirect and tiny ways.
When I'm sick, I refuse to take medication or I even refuse to drink whatever my mum makes for me. I refuse to see doctor as well. Even when the medicine is sent right in front of me, I just would not take it. (Irresponsible for my own health and making them worry).
Sometimes, when people talk to me, I just feel reluctant to answer them or respond to them. I hurt them indirectly. Who would love to be rejected? I even show them that I do not want to talk.
When I'm sad, I let off on my loved ones. I show displeasure. Somehow or rather, we can just hurt them this way.
I show disappointment in certain situation towards people who cant meet my expectation. I hurt them by making them feel that they are useless (for those passive ones) indirectly.
I really need to learn to stop hurting people. A hurt a day, chase the charms away.
04 March 2008
02 March 2008
Worship
Today is the first time I wept during worship not because of problems but because of the goodness of the Lord. I wept and praised God for allowing things to happen to my loved ones. Especially my family. He has been good to us and He has been revealing Himself to them.
Kok Ming chose a song named Hallelujah To the Lamb. I was so touched by this song and I really pray that one day every tongue, every tribe, every people and every land will confess that He is Lord of all. I especially prayed for everyone that is around me who has yet to know the Lord. Be it people in the center, my friends and my family. Everyone!!!
I'm very sure God'll make it happen! In His time!!!
Good job guys, today's worship is excellent!!!
Kok Ming chose a song named Hallelujah To the Lamb. I was so touched by this song and I really pray that one day every tongue, every tribe, every people and every land will confess that He is Lord of all. I especially prayed for everyone that is around me who has yet to know the Lord. Be it people in the center, my friends and my family. Everyone!!!
I'm very sure God'll make it happen! In His time!!!
Good job guys, today's worship is excellent!!!
28 February 2008
Appreciation
Haha...it's really good to chat with my "brother". We seldom have a moment of silence. I think even if we have any moment of silence I don't think there's any weird feeling. Well, I believe very much that if friends can be comfortable with each other in whatever situation, I guess, they are and/ or can be close friends. Also when they are comfortable sharing with each other about their lives.
It's not easy to own good friends indeed. If you have one or more, let's start appreciating them and start expressing your love towards them. Make that expression personal. I guess it will mean a lot to your good friends!
It's not easy to own good friends indeed. If you have one or more, let's start appreciating them and start expressing your love towards them. Make that expression personal. I guess it will mean a lot to your good friends!
25 February 2008
Apology
How would you feel when people judge your "sorry"? People may say you did not mean your "sorry". When you wanted to settle an issue but that person was not in tune with you. It's hard.
When some one apologizes sincerely, he/she maybe judged for not meaning it. When some one doesn't apologize, people keep saying he/ she is not apologetic. What the world wants? Do this, they are not satisfied; do that they are not satisfied as well. Humans are really hard to please. All because, they don't know what they want!!! Sigh... I'm very tired! I've had enough stress.
Still I need to settle this. Not pleasing man issue, just expressing that human is hard to please even when you are not trying to please them. *if you understand what I mean*
When some one apologizes sincerely, he/she maybe judged for not meaning it. When some one doesn't apologize, people keep saying he/ she is not apologetic. What the world wants? Do this, they are not satisfied; do that they are not satisfied as well. Humans are really hard to please. All because, they don't know what they want!!! Sigh... I'm very tired! I've had enough stress.
Still I need to settle this. Not pleasing man issue, just expressing that human is hard to please even when you are not trying to please them. *if you understand what I mean*
24 February 2008
It Finally came back to Me
1 Corinthians 9: 19- 22
Though I am free and belong to no man, I make myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible. To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. To those not having the law, I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God's law but under Christ's law), so to win those not having the law. To the weak I became weak, To win the weak. I have become all things to all men, so that by all possible means I might save some.
I couldn't find these verses for about 6 years. Haha... These were the very first verses that God impressed me and prompted me to send to Kok Ming. It was during his first year in University. He was trying to reach out to his friends in the university. These verses assured him of what he was doing. And we just started for about few weeks to a month, I'm not very sure. I became Christian for not very long. Could be a month old only if I'm not mistaken.
There were many incidents where I was prompted to send prayers and bible verses to certain people. Most of their replies were," Your prayer/ that verse(s) reached in time ." Some of them may continue asking," Why do you send it to me?" Well, my reply usually went,"I don't know."
I did not give up practicing this. But when I'm not connected with people I'll not be able to do so. I stopped doing this for quite a while. Lately I started it again. It's only when I'm connected. Or sometimes I maybe lazy to take the prompt and for some reasons I do not want to do it. Also because I did not study the bible everyday (confession). Sigh...
When I thought back, I'm really glad that God used me even when I was very young in faith. God used me even when I'm young in faith, I'm sure He will use everyone, EVERYONE who believes in Him to touch lives in His own special ways. The problem is always "we are not taking Instructions well from Him." And many of us do not pay attention to what He's telling us. We are giving excuses, we fail to identify and we are just IDIOT, aren't we?
I'm sad because I'm one of them. And yet still not doing anything about it. Yes, Lord, I'm trying. Help me to forgive myself and move on!!!
Though I am free and belong to no man, I make myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible. To the Jews I became like a Jew, to win the Jews. To those under the law I became like one under the law (though I myself am not under the law), so as to win those under the law. To those not having the law, I became like one not having the law (though I am not free from God's law but under Christ's law), so to win those not having the law. To the weak I became weak, To win the weak. I have become all things to all men, so that by all possible means I might save some.
I couldn't find these verses for about 6 years. Haha... These were the very first verses that God impressed me and prompted me to send to Kok Ming. It was during his first year in University. He was trying to reach out to his friends in the university. These verses assured him of what he was doing. And we just started for about few weeks to a month, I'm not very sure. I became Christian for not very long. Could be a month old only if I'm not mistaken.
There were many incidents where I was prompted to send prayers and bible verses to certain people. Most of their replies were," Your prayer/ that verse(s) reached in time ." Some of them may continue asking," Why do you send it to me?" Well, my reply usually went,"I don't know."
I did not give up practicing this. But when I'm not connected with people I'll not be able to do so. I stopped doing this for quite a while. Lately I started it again. It's only when I'm connected. Or sometimes I maybe lazy to take the prompt and for some reasons I do not want to do it. Also because I did not study the bible everyday (confession). Sigh...
When I thought back, I'm really glad that God used me even when I was very young in faith. God used me even when I'm young in faith, I'm sure He will use everyone, EVERYONE who believes in Him to touch lives in His own special ways. The problem is always "we are not taking Instructions well from Him." And many of us do not pay attention to what He's telling us. We are giving excuses, we fail to identify and we are just IDIOT, aren't we?
I'm sad because I'm one of them. And yet still not doing anything about it. Yes, Lord, I'm trying. Help me to forgive myself and move on!!!
22 February 2008
Sharing Faith
There are three keys to sharing your faith with someone else. First, it must be real in your life. Moses said the words must be in your "heart," not just your "head." Second, we must impart truth and information. That is, we must teach diligently. Finally, this truth must penetrate every corner of our lives. We must talk of it when we lie down and when we rise up. We rarely fool anyone, and if one of these keys is missing in our lives, we will not make an impact on others. We must know the truth, it must be real to us, and it must permeate our daily lives.
I think if we want to share our FAITH with some one, we must first know the truth, stated as above. We must try to share how we have experienced God in our daily lives. It can be very personal. Many people that I've met, in fact including myself, we just find it hard to share our personal stuff with others. I'm not so sure of the reasons. Well, I guess this is one of the obstacles that is hindering us to reaching out. No matter how good your sermonate can be, if you are not convicted, it's meaningless. It's all about theory. Where is the personal touch? I'm not sure how many people will agree with me. Personally, I would love to learn about the theories and I'm looking forward to know how God touches people's lives. I guess we have had enough theories some times. We may need the real life stories to encourage us. That's why all those direct sales products or some other products, they need their customers' testimony to testify that their products are real and functioning.
Well, we need spiritual testimony as well. Real life story. Are we ready to share?
I think if we want to share our FAITH with some one, we must first know the truth, stated as above. We must try to share how we have experienced God in our daily lives. It can be very personal. Many people that I've met, in fact including myself, we just find it hard to share our personal stuff with others. I'm not so sure of the reasons. Well, I guess this is one of the obstacles that is hindering us to reaching out. No matter how good your sermonate can be, if you are not convicted, it's meaningless. It's all about theory. Where is the personal touch? I'm not sure how many people will agree with me. Personally, I would love to learn about the theories and I'm looking forward to know how God touches people's lives. I guess we have had enough theories some times. We may need the real life stories to encourage us. That's why all those direct sales products or some other products, they need their customers' testimony to testify that their products are real and functioning.
Well, we need spiritual testimony as well. Real life story. Are we ready to share?
Edison
Sigh...another sad story! I just can't bear when I knew that he wept. It's such a hard thing to face though it was his fault. I'm sad for him and everyone who were involved. Hope this is the end of it and hope people will stop talking about it so that he will be able to continue his life after repenting. I'm not his fans. I don't watch his movie nor his songs. Well, hope everything will be well with him and those who were involved. This lesson is really costly. It can just ruin the lives of the girls. They need great courage to stand up again. Pray that they will find the Lord and hope that God will heal them. Oh well, the world learned a lesson though! Especially for the young ones!
21 February 2008
The answer and questions POSTED2me
As i was typing the previous post. I really couldn't comprehend why I condemn myself before anybody else could do. I SMS-ed this person, she told me why. She said my self- esteem and self- worth is low.
She asked,"Do you believe God created us to be worthless human beings?"
Of course I don't believe God created us to be worthless. He created us for a purpose. In His time, He will make all things beautiful. He surely will make all things beautiful and complete in His time. I really believe so.
She also mentioned that I'm my worst critic.
I didn't want to be like that. I didn't want to. Why i critic myself? I really do not enjoy it. But, dork! I'm doing it! I AM doing it!!!
She also asked me to ask myself by what/whose comparison am I measuring? Frankly, I've difficulty answering this question. I am really having difficulty answering this question. I always feel that other people can always do a better job than me. I remember I attended a Toy Library conference in KL last year. I admired many people, I thought to myself," I can never be like them". I complimented those people to a friend, I remembered what she said. She said,"Why you always think so lowly of yourself? They aren't really good in certain areas." Well, this I don't know. I just saw that they have great courage and talents.
Sigh... She said I have not let go my past. I'm still holding on to something. That something, I guess it's accusation and how other people may think of me. I hate it very much because I was accused badly when I was young. Something happened today. I think it hurt my self- esteem. I trembled.
* * *
I am back. My friend called me. Yeah, indeed this incident turned out to be a good thing. My imagination is too wild. I'm thinking how other people may look at me. I'm answerable to God, not to men, Why should I worry about it? It's not aligned to my mission at all. I remember a sister shared on something and this statement struck me most,"Look at the bigger picture instead of those negative little things." Yeah, I was totally distracted by all this little things. As long as I do not have any bad intention. I'm pure in heart, God will know. And I already tried my best to settle it. There maybe other upcoming problems, well, it's training to achieve my mission and to be a better person. Yeah, it's indeed great to have problems.
I can't control other people and I can't do anything to stop them. But, I can control myself. I must control myself, my emotion and have faith in Him. So, why am I dwelling in this little thing? Oh man, I'm like two person now.
I should stay focus!!! I'm relieved! God's good. He revealed the truth that fast. I just prayed and He answered! God, I love you!!! Really thank God! I no longer sad! Thanks my dear aunt! I thank God for you as well. I can feel your power even over the phone. I do not know how to describe that power. In your presence, I can feel the peace. do not worry guys, she's not my idol. Haha...I'll always turn back to God. She is whom God sent to help me through.
Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal; but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in or steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also (Matthew 6:19-21).
She asked,"Do you believe God created us to be worthless human beings?"
Of course I don't believe God created us to be worthless. He created us for a purpose. In His time, He will make all things beautiful. He surely will make all things beautiful and complete in His time. I really believe so.
She also mentioned that I'm my worst critic.
I didn't want to be like that. I didn't want to. Why i critic myself? I really do not enjoy it. But, dork! I'm doing it! I AM doing it!!!
She also asked me to ask myself by what/whose comparison am I measuring? Frankly, I've difficulty answering this question. I am really having difficulty answering this question. I always feel that other people can always do a better job than me. I remember I attended a Toy Library conference in KL last year. I admired many people, I thought to myself," I can never be like them". I complimented those people to a friend, I remembered what she said. She said,"Why you always think so lowly of yourself? They aren't really good in certain areas." Well, this I don't know. I just saw that they have great courage and talents.
Sigh... She said I have not let go my past. I'm still holding on to something. That something, I guess it's accusation and how other people may think of me. I hate it very much because I was accused badly when I was young. Something happened today. I think it hurt my self- esteem. I trembled.
* * *
I am back. My friend called me. Yeah, indeed this incident turned out to be a good thing. My imagination is too wild. I'm thinking how other people may look at me. I'm answerable to God, not to men, Why should I worry about it? It's not aligned to my mission at all. I remember a sister shared on something and this statement struck me most,"Look at the bigger picture instead of those negative little things." Yeah, I was totally distracted by all this little things. As long as I do not have any bad intention. I'm pure in heart, God will know. And I already tried my best to settle it. There maybe other upcoming problems, well, it's training to achieve my mission and to be a better person. Yeah, it's indeed great to have problems.
I can't control other people and I can't do anything to stop them. But, I can control myself. I must control myself, my emotion and have faith in Him. So, why am I dwelling in this little thing? Oh man, I'm like two person now.
I should stay focus!!! I'm relieved! God's good. He revealed the truth that fast. I just prayed and He answered! God, I love you!!! Really thank God! I no longer sad! Thanks my dear aunt! I thank God for you as well. I can feel your power even over the phone. I do not know how to describe that power. In your presence, I can feel the peace. do not worry guys, she's not my idol. Haha...I'll always turn back to God. She is whom God sent to help me through.
Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal; but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in or steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also (Matthew 6:19-21).
This failure and useless kinda terms are flowing in my mind again. Sigh... I'm reflecting, am i taking things lightly? Am i just filling up the space at this corner of the world? I hate emotions some times. I hate "shit- stirrer" who likes to make things complicated especially in a relationship. i really hate it so much. i'm very worry. I'm praying that God will make this right for me.
It seems normal to me. Before anybody else can condemn me, I condemn myself first. What kinda attitude and behavior is this? What am i trying to do? I just feel like asking the world, "Do you trust me?" I did not do it, I am very sure I did not. And there's no way I can mixed the both up. I reflected again and again! I did not but i've to pay the price. It doesn't really matter to me. Just that the feeling is not easy to gulp. Sigh... Oh God, tell me the truth that i need to know right now!
It seems normal to me. Before anybody else can condemn me, I condemn myself first. What kinda attitude and behavior is this? What am i trying to do? I just feel like asking the world, "Do you trust me?" I did not do it, I am very sure I did not. And there's no way I can mixed the both up. I reflected again and again! I did not but i've to pay the price. It doesn't really matter to me. Just that the feeling is not easy to gulp. Sigh... Oh God, tell me the truth that i need to know right now!
20 February 2008
Onionize and De- onionize
I wanted to post this post during Valentine's Day. However, I couldn't because I must keep this until the end of today. Tomorrow is the last day of CNY. Yeah, it's Chinese Valentine's Day. Em...What happened during Valentine's Day at my work place?
I onionize a colleague's hand. I started off by asking him,"Are you a good guy? Are you kind?" Then he was blurred. He was too humble. He dared not say he is good or kind. Haha... Then I asked," can you do me a favor?" I refused to tell him what I wanted him to help. He kept asking what's it and kind of worrying that I may harm him or something. Then I continued," Can I borrow your hand?" Of course he was still asking what I was trying to do with his hand.
After a few minutes I finally got him to be onionize. So I started using the onion to rub on the back of his hand. Then, he being playful and kind of want to revenge or make a fool, he tried to rub it back on mine. But I manage to avoid it. I was having a tub of water and a bottle of essence oil. But he did not know what is that bottle of thing for. He tried to grabbed it from me too. ut he failed, of course. He kept making noise.
After finished onionizing. He was required to soak his hand in the water then dry it, this step was supposed to be repeated for 6 times. Then for the 7th time, he was required to soak his hand in the water and used the bowl of the spoon to wash his hand so that the smell will be taken away. After that I de- onionized his hand with the essence oil.
My intension was to have some fun at the work place after the long break. And I wanted this and the message behind it as a gift of Valentine's Day for him. My sister was with us, we had this during our lunch time.
The story behind this was a man called Naaman with leprosy. He was looking for help to heal his leprosy. A servant girl told him about the prophet, that is Elisha. So he went to look for this prophet but Elisha did not want to see him. He just sent his servant and told Naaman to wash himself seven times in the Jordan River. The first 6 times nothing happened, but after the 7th time, he was healed. He obeyed God though it sounded ridiculous. *My young colleague was not quite obedient (to me), haha* He was thinking that I may trick him* haha...
I called his name and said,"......Let God be in charge of your and do things according to his way." Also said, when you smell this essence oil remember the sweetness of obeying God.
After that day I already planned to do this on another young brother, a cute but serious brother. haha... This was as a Chinese Valentine's Day gift also. He is quite obedient and willingly to let me manipulate. Haha... and the other colleague was to smell his hand. Haha... I also found it funny. I mean, the guy who was being onionized before did not know why he had to help me smell his hand. haha... That's funny. After that my senior came to see what we were doing. Then I forgot what happened that we laughed like mad. Then I de- onionized his hands and then he left for horse riding. Told him about the story behind and asked him to let God take charge of his life and do things in his will as well.
I just think that this maybe a special gift. We had fun and I hope this message will sink deep in their hearts! This is one of the activity for the CHC. Did you guys had fun? Haha...
I onionize a colleague's hand. I started off by asking him,"Are you a good guy? Are you kind?" Then he was blurred. He was too humble. He dared not say he is good or kind. Haha... Then I asked," can you do me a favor?" I refused to tell him what I wanted him to help. He kept asking what's it and kind of worrying that I may harm him or something. Then I continued," Can I borrow your hand?" Of course he was still asking what I was trying to do with his hand.
After a few minutes I finally got him to be onionize. So I started using the onion to rub on the back of his hand. Then, he being playful and kind of want to revenge or make a fool, he tried to rub it back on mine. But I manage to avoid it. I was having a tub of water and a bottle of essence oil. But he did not know what is that bottle of thing for. He tried to grabbed it from me too. ut he failed, of course. He kept making noise.
After finished onionizing. He was required to soak his hand in the water then dry it, this step was supposed to be repeated for 6 times. Then for the 7th time, he was required to soak his hand in the water and used the bowl of the spoon to wash his hand so that the smell will be taken away. After that I de- onionized his hand with the essence oil.
My intension was to have some fun at the work place after the long break. And I wanted this and the message behind it as a gift of Valentine's Day for him. My sister was with us, we had this during our lunch time.
The story behind this was a man called Naaman with leprosy. He was looking for help to heal his leprosy. A servant girl told him about the prophet, that is Elisha. So he went to look for this prophet but Elisha did not want to see him. He just sent his servant and told Naaman to wash himself seven times in the Jordan River. The first 6 times nothing happened, but after the 7th time, he was healed. He obeyed God though it sounded ridiculous. *My young colleague was not quite obedient (to me), haha* He was thinking that I may trick him* haha...
I called his name and said,"......Let God be in charge of your and do things according to his way." Also said, when you smell this essence oil remember the sweetness of obeying God.
After that day I already planned to do this on another young brother, a cute but serious brother. haha... This was as a Chinese Valentine's Day gift also. He is quite obedient and willingly to let me manipulate. Haha... and the other colleague was to smell his hand. Haha... I also found it funny. I mean, the guy who was being onionized before did not know why he had to help me smell his hand. haha... That's funny. After that my senior came to see what we were doing. Then I forgot what happened that we laughed like mad. Then I de- onionized his hands and then he left for horse riding. Told him about the story behind and asked him to let God take charge of his life and do things in his will as well.
I just think that this maybe a special gift. We had fun and I hope this message will sink deep in their hearts! This is one of the activity for the CHC. Did you guys had fun? Haha...
19 February 2008
Wan Keen and Frisbee
This is Wan Keen. We brought her to a field near our house to throw Frisbee. When I took out my camera, she posted. Cute not?
See, she's trying to catch the disc when Wan Sian threw to her. Haha.. she got her hand on it at times. And she hurt her thumb also...
This is a shot where Wan Sian was throwing the disc towards Wan Keen.
Then we went to walk on these stone thing. She was having hard time walking on these stones. Haha..she kept making noise like," Aduh, Aduh, sakitnya!" Non- stop ok?
But she still gave a smile when the camera was on her.
It's too painful already. She was trying to climb up the bar and sit. Haha...
Still walking. She walked 3 rounds as I'd commanded her to, for no reasons actually. Just that I wanted to see her reaction. Then, I promised her to dinner out if she can complete 3 rounds. Haha...that's why she persevered! haha... I know I'm bad! Always!
17 February 2008
Weeping
Hmmm... I always feel sad when I got to know any of my friends' faith to God faded. Hmm... I do not know how to put it in words. Just weep for this friend and hoping that God will reveal His will soon.
16 February 2008
Philippians 1:29
For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but to suffer for him.
John 16:33
" I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
Philippians 1:29 was one of the verses that uncle Jimmy shared tonight. This verse spoke to me somehow. We are to suffer for Christ. Deep down in my heart, I already know that I need to get discomfort to serve him. At the same time God assured us that He had overcome the world. We do not have to worry about the troubles that we are going to face.
Frankly, I had experienced God's provision very much, God's protection and guidance through many incidents and situations. I still remember that incident, happened last year which I felt hurt for a day plus. It took me few days to forgive that person. When I thought back now, no more thorns in me. Instead, I'm happy because I earned friendship and I experienced God once again.
This year started with happiness but somehow, I'm afraid that some thing might kick off the unhappiness. Yea, though God had assured me again and again that He will not give me things/ problems that I cannot bear, or He had overcome the world, I still tremble. Human kan?
There was an illustration given by uncle Jimmy today, about catfish and codfish. Catfish is codfish enemy, in order to make the codfish meat taste better, people put a catfish into the school of codfish. So then, the catfish will chase the codfish and they will "run" around. hehe... So some times problems are making our lives better and problems spice up our lives.
So, why am I afraid of problems? Haiz... I read another relevant passage today. But I'm lazy to post it up. Maybe I should. Let's see...
By nature, we are sight-walkers, not faith-walkers. We tend to have confidence in that which we can see, that which we have known. We fear that which we can't see and haven't known. Not only does Israel refuse to go into the land because of the giants - the Israelites want to return to Egypt! Do they not remember that they were slaves there? Do they not remember that they cried out in tears to God for deliverance from Egypt? You can't go back to your old life. There is nothing there but bondage. Your hope lies in following the Lord by faith. Walk forward.___read Numbers 14.
My term will be we are visual learner. We need visual prompts to do things. Look at the road signs, the phone and PC icons and etc..
For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe on him, but to suffer for him.
John 16:33
" I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
Philippians 1:29 was one of the verses that uncle Jimmy shared tonight. This verse spoke to me somehow. We are to suffer for Christ. Deep down in my heart, I already know that I need to get discomfort to serve him. At the same time God assured us that He had overcome the world. We do not have to worry about the troubles that we are going to face.
Frankly, I had experienced God's provision very much, God's protection and guidance through many incidents and situations. I still remember that incident, happened last year which I felt hurt for a day plus. It took me few days to forgive that person. When I thought back now, no more thorns in me. Instead, I'm happy because I earned friendship and I experienced God once again.
This year started with happiness but somehow, I'm afraid that some thing might kick off the unhappiness. Yea, though God had assured me again and again that He will not give me things/ problems that I cannot bear, or He had overcome the world, I still tremble. Human kan?
There was an illustration given by uncle Jimmy today, about catfish and codfish. Catfish is codfish enemy, in order to make the codfish meat taste better, people put a catfish into the school of codfish. So then, the catfish will chase the codfish and they will "run" around. hehe... So some times problems are making our lives better and problems spice up our lives.
So, why am I afraid of problems? Haiz... I read another relevant passage today. But I'm lazy to post it up. Maybe I should. Let's see...
By nature, we are sight-walkers, not faith-walkers. We tend to have confidence in that which we can see, that which we have known. We fear that which we can't see and haven't known. Not only does Israel refuse to go into the land because of the giants - the Israelites want to return to Egypt! Do they not remember that they were slaves there? Do they not remember that they cried out in tears to God for deliverance from Egypt? You can't go back to your old life. There is nothing there but bondage. Your hope lies in following the Lord by faith. Walk forward.___read Numbers 14.
My term will be we are visual learner. We need visual prompts to do things. Look at the road signs, the phone and PC icons and etc..
Badminton
Yeay! We made it! We played for 2 hours! Hahah...Jin Ann you're cool man!!! Thanks for accompanying me for 2 hours! haha...
Hey you, yes you!!! Thanks for coming too. Haha... hope you did enjoy playing with my sister. Next time will play with ok? Sorry ah, kind of neglected you! Hahaha...
Thanks darling for joining us too. It meant so much to me because other sports that you go i can't go. Swimming, you don't want. So this really meant so much to me!
Uwing, sorry lar. It seemed your skill is too great and none of us can match your level. But thanks for coming too!
For myself, of course i enjoyed it very much! It's training! I'm training my coordination. I forgot to wear specs. I couldn't really see it. That day i wore specs also couldn't aim. Sigh...sad case.
Play more ya guys! I can't play alone right? sigh... sister will be leaving soon. Nobody will accompany me. It's very hard to find activity partners. People are working. So it's very hard to find time to play. Hope this Saturday can go again.
Thanks guys for coming once again! You all spiced up my day! Another great picture formed with all of you! *hugs*
Hey you, yes you!!! Thanks for coming too. Haha... hope you did enjoy playing with my sister. Next time will play with ok? Sorry ah, kind of neglected you! Hahaha...
Thanks darling for joining us too. It meant so much to me because other sports that you go i can't go. Swimming, you don't want. So this really meant so much to me!
Uwing, sorry lar. It seemed your skill is too great and none of us can match your level. But thanks for coming too!
For myself, of course i enjoyed it very much! It's training! I'm training my coordination. I forgot to wear specs. I couldn't really see it. That day i wore specs also couldn't aim. Sigh...sad case.
Play more ya guys! I can't play alone right? sigh... sister will be leaving soon. Nobody will accompany me. It's very hard to find activity partners. People are working. So it's very hard to find time to play. Hope this Saturday can go again.
Thanks guys for coming once again! You all spiced up my day! Another great picture formed with all of you! *hugs*
15 February 2008
Things that can make me Feel Better
I just found out that going online can cool me down when I am feeling sad or frustrated. I really can feel better even right now. Yes, I was quite frustrated just now. Half way through, I suddenly feel that I'm not that frustrated anymore. When I'm in such states, what I wish to do is to go workout. That day I was not in good mood, I went badminton with my sister and another friend. After the game, I felt much much better. I became happy again. Tomorrow we are going to play again. I'm looking forward.
Hmm...Yesterday was Valentine's Day. Kok Ming and I did not go out. He was on call. So I stayed at home online. People who were online last night, kept asking me the same question==>
"You not going out tonight?"
I replied," NO."
"WHY?"
"Because he is working."
This conversation repeated so many times from different people. At first I still could remember who asked me this question. After the 4th time, I lost count already. Haha... This evening, one of my colleagues asked me where I celebrated Valentine's Day, then i burst out laughing. Oh man! Haha...
I'm not sad because we did not go out. Instead, I'm happy that we are still together after so many years! A few days ago, a friend called me. We did not talk to each other for very long. We updated each other and he asked about my work, and he was surprised that I'm still working at the same place. He said I'm very loyal. ha..He asked if I'm still with the same guy and of course I said,"Yes."
Haha...Imagine, We did not talk to each other for about 3 years if I'm not mistaken. Many things could have happened to break me and Kok Ming. I really thank God for His guidance and for sustaining us! This year is our 7th year already! 5 years distance and now is the second year we did not depart! Thank God! Really thank God!
Hmm...Yesterday was Valentine's Day. Kok Ming and I did not go out. He was on call. So I stayed at home online. People who were online last night, kept asking me the same question==>
"You not going out tonight?"
I replied," NO."
"WHY?"
"Because he is working."
This conversation repeated so many times from different people. At first I still could remember who asked me this question. After the 4th time, I lost count already. Haha... This evening, one of my colleagues asked me where I celebrated Valentine's Day, then i burst out laughing. Oh man! Haha...
I'm not sad because we did not go out. Instead, I'm happy that we are still together after so many years! A few days ago, a friend called me. We did not talk to each other for very long. We updated each other and he asked about my work, and he was surprised that I'm still working at the same place. He said I'm very loyal. ha..He asked if I'm still with the same guy and of course I said,"Yes."
Haha...Imagine, We did not talk to each other for about 3 years if I'm not mistaken. Many things could have happened to break me and Kok Ming. I really thank God for His guidance and for sustaining us! This year is our 7th year already! 5 years distance and now is the second year we did not depart! Thank God! Really thank God!
14 February 2008
Nearly
I nearly let the theme wall press my emotion button. The theme wall dropped today!!! Oh man, once i entered the center, I saw everything dropped. I was kinda pissed off by all these things. After a long break things became like this!
My sis and I tried to put it up again and we tried using the 502 glue. Hope it can hold the theme wall through out the year! Hope tomorrow when i enter the center i wont see the same thing as this morning!!!
I was trying to control my frustration. I cooled down then started crapping again. We had some fun together today! An adventurous day for some body.
HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!!!
My sis and I tried to put it up again and we tried using the 502 glue. Hope it can hold the theme wall through out the year! Hope tomorrow when i enter the center i wont see the same thing as this morning!!!
I was trying to control my frustration. I cooled down then started crapping again. We had some fun together today! An adventurous day for some body.
HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!!!
10 February 2008
Coffee's Fault
I'm feeling very very dizzy! I just can't take coffee. Not that I do not like it, it's my body, sigh... may be it's too strong for me. My hands are shaking! My vision is quite blur, as if i'm drunk! Sigh... Stupid coffee!!!
Chinese New Year, it's great! Have been meeting a lot of old school mates. Last time used to click quite well with them. Hmm... I was really low profile. Many people actually do not even know who I am. Maybe they do not even know tat I exist. Yes, my profile is that low! One of my classmates commented to other friends that day, he said my profile was REALLY, REALLY low. He repeated a few times. Hmm... It's ok, I really do not mind to certain extend. When I was young I seldom mixed around. I seldom talk also. Now I considered myself talk a lot, a lot already!
Frankly, I do not have a GOOD friend. Hahaha... I chose not to have one I guess. It's my problem. I find it hard to trust human! I was betrayed so many times. I just do not have the courage to own one.
Anyway, I'm glad that I still can meet them and they still remember me. Haha...felt very awkward that day because long time did not see them, now suddenly met up. haha..That kind of feeling was really weird. Imagine, we departed when we were 12 years old. Hahaha...now we are already 25. *phew*
Chinese New Year, it's great! Have been meeting a lot of old school mates. Last time used to click quite well with them. Hmm... I was really low profile. Many people actually do not even know who I am. Maybe they do not even know tat I exist. Yes, my profile is that low! One of my classmates commented to other friends that day, he said my profile was REALLY, REALLY low. He repeated a few times. Hmm... It's ok, I really do not mind to certain extend. When I was young I seldom mixed around. I seldom talk also. Now I considered myself talk a lot, a lot already!
Frankly, I do not have a GOOD friend. Hahaha... I chose not to have one I guess. It's my problem. I find it hard to trust human! I was betrayed so many times. I just do not have the courage to own one.
Anyway, I'm glad that I still can meet them and they still remember me. Haha...felt very awkward that day because long time did not see them, now suddenly met up. haha..That kind of feeling was really weird. Imagine, we departed when we were 12 years old. Hahaha...now we are already 25. *phew*
01 February 2008
Today
Oh man, today is really a bad day for me. Early in the morning i already feel not well. My head is very pain, my ear. I'm very afraid to have ear infection again. That kinda pain was killing me. Then my mood also not very good, plus when I saw my fellow brother is not in good shape. I do not know what's his problem. I got quite frustrated at times because I couldn't help him. Sigh...Geram betul!
Anyway, after work I went swimming and before that I already took 4 panadols. After swimming I went to get craft papers for my Sunday School class and then went for supper with my sister. I enjoyed my fruit tea so much. I felt so relaxing when i was there. Hmm...now still tired but not so painful already. Yeah, Hydrotherapy is really helpful! Any pain I have, after swim, pain no more.
Hmmm...I start to feel sleepy ler. Nites! Hope he will be well soon!
Anyway, after work I went swimming and before that I already took 4 panadols. After swimming I went to get craft papers for my Sunday School class and then went for supper with my sister. I enjoyed my fruit tea so much. I felt so relaxing when i was there. Hmm...now still tired but not so painful already. Yeah, Hydrotherapy is really helpful! Any pain I have, after swim, pain no more.
Hmmm...I start to feel sleepy ler. Nites! Hope he will be well soon!
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