08 August 2007

WHY?

Phew...today is a tiring day. I just do not know why. Hmm..i went to school today to continue the pilot project. Today i helped the teachers handled a gal who always wanted attention. So she did a lot of stupid stuff to attract teacher's attention. At first i did not know until at one time she misbehaved so i ignored her. Then she started crying. I was surprised, then i started to comfort her and she was okay. I found out she has fear to rejection.

After that i heard about her background and i was really sad. Kind of pity her as well. Some times when i see her my tears start swelling. Sigh...Actually she was rejected by her mother. She is slow in learning but she is a smart one though. Her dad is working in another state. School teachers seldom pay attention to her. She began to stick to me because she knows i love her. She knows that i caught her weak point.

Today when i praised a boy, she kept convincing me that she is a good girl also. When i praised her she began to smile whole day. At first i disliked her. She is not cute and she was naughty. When i found out why she behaved that way i felt very sad for her. Sigh... How can her mum reject her? Why the teachers never tried to understand her? Why we have to neglect her?

When i left her class to another class. She kept calling me. Sigh...my heart was like being cut deep inside. However, there was something that cheered me up. The teachers at the other class are improving. They started to know what to do and they started to know how to handle the children. I'm very glad to see that and really thank God for giving me this opportunity to have more exposure and to grow together with the school.

Though i'll be busier, i'm enjoying my work very much!!!

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