This thing happened long ago. I felt sorry about this for so long. I once forgot about it and after a chat with a friend, it occurred to me again. I carelessly think that people who are successful do not need my care and concern. And I feel that my care and concern will not be good enough for them. So I did not show much care and concern to that friend. I really feel that this friend is too "high end".
After one day and after a conversation, I finally realized that this friend is also a human. This friend needs care and concern. I tried many times to show my gratitudes since few years back, but I couldn't find anything that it's suitable. Sigh... I really think that if i can change a bit, this friend will be more joyful! It's good to feel appreciated. HUMAN needs love. No exceptional, I must remember that.
I cant imagine how can i fail in this. No common sense!
21 June 2008
Gone Astray
Lately, this thought kept coming to me saying,the whole earth is getting worse and worse and to worst soon. Everything in the world is changing to the negative side. I recalled back a lot of things from my work place to the weather.
Last time when I was still a part timer, I found that everyone is good and everything really ran smoothly without much problem. After Kok Ming and friends left, many things seemed to happen. People changed and challenges kept coming my way. But these challenges changed me to be better, braver and wiser.
About my relationship with Kok Ming, I feel that we are near yet we are far. Hmmm... Last time when he was studying I think he has more time to be romantic. But after working, he is even busier, not only with his job but with church work. He often got very tired and my work load is much more than before also. We both go out with tiredness and this contributed to our arguments. I prayed that God will send him to the right ministry before and I think God answered this prayer. Well, still I hope more quality time together. Well, I do not think that we are getting worse. At least we settled issues and we compromised. Thanks to Wan Li. She has been supporting me and guiding me.
Weather-- When I was young, I found that the weather was quite predictable. We can roughly know which month will rain and which month will be sunny. Disaster every where as well and these are the signs of the second coming of Christ. Hmm...I cannot imagine myself as one of the victims in China or Myanmar. I am very afraid of losing loved ones.
Marriages- Nowadays people take Divorce as a solution and more and more people think that that's the best way to settle issues. God provides us good things and everything God created is good. We are making things complicated and we want the easy way out and start hurting people we once loved and what about the children? They grow up in single parent family. They are made incomplete emotionally. That's how we have more and more problem nowadays i guess.
All we like sheep have gone astray
Each of us turning our own separate ways
We have all sinned and fallen short of Your glory
But Your glory is what we desire to see
And in Your presence is where we long to be
O Lord
Show us Your mercy and grace
Take us to Your holy place
Forgive our sin
And heal our land
We long to live
In Your presence once again
Yes Lord, forgive our sins and heal our land. Take us back to Your holy place where you first created. A place where there is love, joy and peace and a place that is HOLY and full of Your glory. Father, help us not to take You for granted, help us learn to be responsible of what we have done. Help us truly repent and come to You again to be made Holy and righteous! Amen.
Last time when I was still a part timer, I found that everyone is good and everything really ran smoothly without much problem. After Kok Ming and friends left, many things seemed to happen. People changed and challenges kept coming my way. But these challenges changed me to be better, braver and wiser.
About my relationship with Kok Ming, I feel that we are near yet we are far. Hmmm... Last time when he was studying I think he has more time to be romantic. But after working, he is even busier, not only with his job but with church work. He often got very tired and my work load is much more than before also. We both go out with tiredness and this contributed to our arguments. I prayed that God will send him to the right ministry before and I think God answered this prayer. Well, still I hope more quality time together. Well, I do not think that we are getting worse. At least we settled issues and we compromised. Thanks to Wan Li. She has been supporting me and guiding me.
Weather-- When I was young, I found that the weather was quite predictable. We can roughly know which month will rain and which month will be sunny. Disaster every where as well and these are the signs of the second coming of Christ. Hmm...I cannot imagine myself as one of the victims in China or Myanmar. I am very afraid of losing loved ones.
Marriages- Nowadays people take Divorce as a solution and more and more people think that that's the best way to settle issues. God provides us good things and everything God created is good. We are making things complicated and we want the easy way out and start hurting people we once loved and what about the children? They grow up in single parent family. They are made incomplete emotionally. That's how we have more and more problem nowadays i guess.
All we like sheep have gone astray
Each of us turning our own separate ways
We have all sinned and fallen short of Your glory
But Your glory is what we desire to see
And in Your presence is where we long to be
O Lord
Show us Your mercy and grace
Take us to Your holy place
Forgive our sin
And heal our land
We long to live
In Your presence once again
Yes Lord, forgive our sins and heal our land. Take us back to Your holy place where you first created. A place where there is love, joy and peace and a place that is HOLY and full of Your glory. Father, help us not to take You for granted, help us learn to be responsible of what we have done. Help us truly repent and come to You again to be made Holy and righteous! Amen.
15 June 2008
I have not been online for almost a week. Hmm... All because I've not been well. I started to feel unwell since 7th June. It was a week ago. I was having fever on and off. I was feeling very tired and very sleepy though I slept early. I was feeling dizzy all time. Haha... I even fell down when I was running with a kid. I slipped. Luckily I did not hurt my leg or my back. Just being laughed for a moment. Haha... My sis laughed like mad, she did not even help me up. What the...!
Hmm... I hope to get well soon especially the tiredness that I'm having. Kok Ming always says I'm like an old lady, pain here, pain there and I agree also. I'm well known of falling sick also. Friends always ask me, " How are you? Still sick ah?" Then they laugh. Haha...
Last few years I'd been sick often, one of my colleagues bought me Vitamin C. Haha... And lately, another colleague bought me 2 packets of Salonpas, plaster for backache and stiff shoulders etc. Haha... One of my students parents bought me one big patch also with Chili extracts some more. Haha... It is that obvious that almost everyone knows about it.
However, I'm so thankful for these caring people and especially Kok Ming. He is the one who provides me a lot of medical needs and help my mum watch over me. I some times make my mum very worried I know. She makes herbal tea for me and I don't like it. She makes juice for me and some times I feel very reluctant to take it. She can mix this and mix that until I freak out. But she knows me now, she will make the simplest for me and put it together with my lunch box. I've such a great mum.
Hmm... I hope to get well soon especially the tiredness that I'm having. Kok Ming always says I'm like an old lady, pain here, pain there and I agree also. I'm well known of falling sick also. Friends always ask me, " How are you? Still sick ah?" Then they laugh. Haha...
Last few years I'd been sick often, one of my colleagues bought me Vitamin C. Haha... And lately, another colleague bought me 2 packets of Salonpas, plaster for backache and stiff shoulders etc. Haha... One of my students parents bought me one big patch also with Chili extracts some more. Haha... It is that obvious that almost everyone knows about it.
However, I'm so thankful for these caring people and especially Kok Ming. He is the one who provides me a lot of medical needs and help my mum watch over me. I some times make my mum very worried I know. She makes herbal tea for me and I don't like it. She makes juice for me and some times I feel very reluctant to take it. She can mix this and mix that until I freak out. But she knows me now, she will make the simplest for me and put it together with my lunch box. I've such a great mum.
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