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On our way home. Look at the mountain in front of us, I thought it was nice. hmmm... It's kinda heavy hearted when I was heading home.

After lunch we went to her room just to spend the last few hours together. We were lying on her bed and we took a picture together, yea, only wan keen and me together because she was trying to fill up some of the forms before her orientation started. Hahaha... Wan Keen kept laughing. Look at her? Sigh...

Haha... Here's her toiletries compartment. Hmmm...

This is one of the compartment. I just took for fun because after cleaning up I had nothing to do there. So spending my time snapping some photos related to her.

This is her cupboard. Haha... I was not sure if she was gonna shift again so I told her not to unpack everything until the end of the orientation. Well, she told me she gotta shift to a new block after her first semester.

She is changing her slippers. Haha... We brought along broom and mop which her room mate did not bring any of those. Good start for them to share things :) Her room mate looked very cool and fierce you know. She did not say a single word even with her family. Maybe she was going through transition problem. And there were a lot more things to settle like the PTPTN loan and other registration things.

The "Last" picture with Wan Keen. Look at Wan Keen, she just liked taking pictures.

Heh, after cleaning her room. It looked much cozy, or much like a room. Hmm... Quite comfortable though everything was smaller than USM Penang. Haha... Yea, I still prefer USM. I put the cross there. Not sure where she placed it now. I did not ask.

The first person who slept on the bed was not wan sian. Haha... Who else if not Wan Keen? She was the first one to lie on the bed, happily.

Here's her room. It was extremely dusty. Her room mate reached before her. So she got no choice to choose her bed, cupboard, table etc. But everything was in not VERY terrible condition. At least better than the one we saw downstairs.

Here's her college office if I'm not mistaken. Here's the last the last station. After this, she could proceed to her room.

One of the station. Hahaha... I was accompanying her. Other parents and family were waiting down there. Hehe... She wont feel shameful one because she needed company.

Here is a picture showing her going up to the office to continue her registration procedures.

This was a gift for my sister when she left for uni. Hmm... Now that she had left, now my house left 4 of us only. At times really feel quiet. I often dragged my sister along to have supper or to have snacks outside. We went to Malay night market together. We enjoyed food together. Hahaha... Nobody shares my junks now. My chocolates, Mamee, yogurt drinks, fruit juice, Cheezels, rice crackers etc etc. Hmmm...

Play our Role

Oh man, I was so busy and so tired now! We had a new kid today. He's Benjamin Soong, known as Benji. He was quite good for a first timer in the center. He is only 2 years old. He's very chubby. He got lots of baby fat seriously. I can only feel his flesh when I hold his hand. His tummy is big and he is so cheerful! The mother is weird to me because she viewed her son as if he's an alien. Well, I don't blame her because this is her first child. She was like can't imagine how her son can learn and will be able to acquire the skills that we targeted for him.

Having a baby is suppose to be a joyful thing for the family. It supposed to be... However these bunch of parents get endless worries and hurts after they delivered their babies. Some thought after a safe delivery, they are safe. Who knows when their sons or daughters reach 2 or 3 years old, they discover some differences between their children and others. They start to question why their sweethearts have no speech yet, why they lost their first words after a while, while no eye contact from them, why are they so cranky all the time, why they dislike cuddles even from the family members and why they have sleep disorder and so on...

Then they start to ask around and they are suggested to see a doctor and then they will get the diagnosis from the doctor. That's when their despair starts. Some mothers go into depression and are not able to accept their children and some start seeking for help from then on. They start to look for early intervention center, speech therapy, physiotherapy or occupational therapy. Some even start to look for tuition for the kids and they don't mind spending as long as it may help the kids. Some of them even seek help from the bomohs.

These are the scenario of my parents in the center. They really need much support from the service providers and their family. They may seem to accept the child, however, deep down in their hearts, there are endless worries and questions. They are still seeking the answer and they are still seeking help from every where no matter what kinda services they are receiving now. Some times they may confuse their children even more.

As a service provider, our responsibility is not only to teach the children, we are to encourage the parents and give them comfort and assurance when need to. Our responds and our comments to the child is very important. The way we convey our message will affect the parents' emotions and they may feel discouraged if our respond is always negative. When we are teaching them, we really need to practice patience. We maybe frustrated because of the behavior of the child, but we should not show it on our face or express it verbally to the parents. We need to find our way out. Using the appropriate method will help the child work better and to avoid ourselves from being annoyed.

This is our responsibility. When we face difficulties in teaching these children, before we can complain about the children, we should check ourselves. How well are we doing? Are we helping them to solve the problems in learning or are we there to add burdens to the parents? What's our mission as a special education teacher? Is beating, shouting, blaming the right methods? What can we do about it? What is our responsibility? I disallowed my teachers to use cane, I even banned my parents from using it. I want them to communicate with the children, I want them to help the children listen to instructions instead of listening/ obeying the cane. Are we not worth of any respect? The cane is gaining respect from the children. What are we then?

I just hope that we are playing our role well. We are to be blamed when we receive any complaints from the parents. That shows that we are not playing our role well. When there's complains, check ourselves instead of blaming them for being demanding or being fault finding. I always believe that the parents are very appreciative. When they complain, that means we really are not playing our role well. I really hope this person can see the problem and start playing his/her role.

So Proud of U, wan keen!

Early of this year, Wan Keen participated a children painting competition organized by Henkel, a German company. They have this project called MIT which stands for Making an impact for Tomorrow. This competition was opened for less fortunate children like orphans or children from poor family. Wan Keen was the special one. She may be the only Autistic kid. There were 653 art works from the children from 23 countries. A preselection was made by a jury in Duesseldorf. Afterwards a second jury of 7 international children and artists living in Duesseldorf chose the final winners. She did it!!!

Wan Keen is one of the 5 winners under the category of 11- 12 years old. Though she is the winner, the prize will be given to our organization. One of the objectives is to encourage and support organizations working with children so that we can continue to serve these children and making an impact for the lives of these children for tomorrow.

We were thinking to hold the prize and certificate ceremony in her school so that her friends can be proud of her and also help open the eyes of the teachers teaching the normal classes, that there are indeed potential in these children and why should they be deprived or anything. And also let other children or parents be encouraged to see Wan Keen up there, receiving a recognition from an international body.

I'm so proud of her! The title for this competition was My Favorite Celebration and my sister chose Chinese New Year as her favorite celebration. Hope she can go even further from here.

YEAH!!! Muaks! We are so proud of her!

Baptism Anniversary?

I did not know today is my 3rd baptism anniversary until somebody sent me this SMS: A blessed 3rd baptism anniversary 2 u. Trust that u r doing well in d Lord...Then only I realized it. Wow, I was baptized on 3rd July 2005 and I accepted Christ on 1st July 2001. Hahaha... That's cool! I must remember it! Yo, I thought today is only my student's birthday. The SMS really surprised me. Thanks Peter for this GREAT reminder and the wishes. Yeah, indeed I'm blessed! This really enlightened my day!

Yeah, today is one of my students' birthday and his mum brought a cake to the center to celebrate his birthday with his friends and teachers. He has been with us for 5 years already.
The birthday boy and his friends. They all have grown up so much! And we spent many years together. I see them grow and they improve very fast each year!

"Hooo-hoo-hoo"! Off it goes!

He really loved his cake. He even tried to cut and distribute to his friends!

Can you see how much he enjoyed his cake? Look at his mouth. haha

Ideal Mate

Phew, finally done the session with the youth. I wasn't well prepared though I was having the book for so long. I started doing it on Thursday and completed on Friday or maybe I should say I completed on Saturday morning 2.30am. Hahaha... I know I'm bad. I was just not in the right mood to prepare that session for the past month. I've been feeling very tired and lazy. But my mind was working on it thinking what to share. Even on Thursday I was so tired but I'd no choice but to force myself to sit in front of the computer and started doing it. Hmm... My mind was so tired and I found it hard to digest what I was reading from the book.

I did not practice my presentation until Saturday morning around 11am. Another round of practice was an hour before the meeting. At first I was not nervous until Carmen came. She said she will ask questions. Hahaha... But at the end. Her question was not answered. :P

Finally completed. There were laughters and silence. I was quite afraid when the youth went silent. Hahaha... I know the girls were attentive and some of the guys were sleepy. I think this sharing spoke to somebody which I was quite afraid at first. I was afraid because one of the statement sounded quite harsh. However, I told myself I must emphasize even more on not to have non- christian bf/ gf. Well, I did my part, and I just wanna leave the rest to God to help them through. I'm sad when I know this thing is happening.

Through this sharing, a lot of bitter sweet memories came to my mind and through this sharing, I really know that I love him so much though he was not what I want, HE IS WHAT I NEED. I really agreed that God always wanna give us the best. There were a lot of guys came across my path but none of them can compete with Kok Ming. He's really an IDEAL for me. Thank God for giving me this opportunity to remember those memories. These memories make me love him even more despite what had happened before.

Another One

This is Lap Foong and his favorite kid, Kai Wai. He really love him so much that he went back to visit him. He even missed him after he left the work. haha...

Here's another child, though he did not really like her, she liked him so much that she called him very often during session. Even after he left, she still wanted him to guide her. She kept crying for him and she wanted nobody else except him.


This is wan sian and lap foong. They have great communication problem. Hahah... they do not understand each other and they needed me to translate what each of them said at times. Lap Foong and I went badminton every Saturday. If it's not him, my skill would not be able to improve. Really thank for your company through out these few months. I enjoyed playing it without pressure. This is our last shutter cock. Hahaha... Cannot be used anymore la.


This is Shanta and Lap Foong. They are quite closed at work also. We often bullied him. And yes, we do miss his presence in the center because with him there will be nosier because everyone made fun out of him. Haha... He disliked it at times. But can't help, he was the only guy in Canning Garden center.

This was one of the activities in the center where we paint on children's face. Look at them, they had fun too. Our children usually do not like it one. They may yell and kick us when we attempt to do it on them. The girl on the right is Huey Leng. She is Vincent's cousin. And she was another part timer over there too. A fun girl to be with!


This is his farewell gift from me. It's kinda hard for me to think of what to give him. I decided to use guitar picks to form this cross for him and hoping that whenever he sees the cross, he will be able to see God's grace and God's mercy. Also hope that he will remember to go to church and continue to seek God! Before he left, I reminded him again and again to find a church to go to. Reminded him not to start any boy-girl relationship with non- Christian. I guessed he also find me being long winded.

Haha...My dear brother, I hope that you will remember my prayers to God for you. Do remember to find a church to go to and do remember how you were drawn closer to Him and the fear that you had before this. God brought you out from there and keep moving on. You are not walking alone. Take good care and see you around soon ya!