Tiring

Being a story teller can be very tired at times. I've to adapt to my partner's way of doing things. This morning my head was pain like hell. I kept praying this morning for my sister and brother's result and for myself. They turned out well and me? Again, I stumbled during the senior group session. I found my area though. I think I can deal with younger kids better than the older ones. Sigh... I'm kinda discouraged but I'm trying to ignore those negative stuff and try to do better. Phew...I'm still tired.

Oh ya, staying in a dark room with little light for long time can be very tiring also. Hmm... Tomorrow I'll be free. I don't have any parts to play. Thursday and Friday start battle again. less fright though. It's a good sign.

A Dedication

This is for you! I sang this song today and I hope you will be lifted by this song especially it's bridge.

God is good all he time

God is good all the time
He put a song of praise
In this heart of mine!
God is good all the time
And through the darkest night
His light will shine
God is good
God is good all the time

If you're walking through the valley
And there are shadows all around
Do not fear, he will guide you
He will keep you safe and sound
he has promised to never leave you
Nor forsake you, and His word is true

We were sinners so unworthy
Still for us He chose to die
Filled us with His Holy Spirit
Now we can stand and testify
That his love is everlasting
And his mercies, they will never end

Though I may not understand
All the plans you have for me
My life is in your hands
And through the eyes of faith
I can clearly seee


See with our eyes of faith. We may not really understand the plans, but He is GOOD, all the time. He won't lead us to the wrong path. Hold on to Him and move on!!! I'm praying and supporting you always! Love in Christ...

God Spoke once again

I love to hear God speaks. I enjoy hearing from God. God spoke to me once again on Saturday night through Pastor Chong. My car broke down at Medan Gopeng main road that day. So i called home. I heard my dad yelling and i started to be frustrated. I waited there with my sister for almost an hour. We were hungry and we were waiting for my dad and his foremen. Before I left the center I already told my sister that I felt that something bad is going to happen.

It was raining cats and dogs. I was at the left side of the road and an ambulance passed by. I was like, Oh man, why at this time? My dad came and the foremen started my car and I've to go to the bus station to fetch my elder sister. I was not familiar with that place so I got lost and gotta make a U-turn. My dad got frustrated because of that ( I felt it's stupid). He scolded me after the whole thing.

He said he was very disappointed because we didn't know the way etc. A lot of the things that he scolded was wrong. He made wrong assumption and he ignored my feelings. I hid in my room and cried. I really felt like going out to fight back but i did not.

On Saturday night, the pastor shared on 1 Corinthians 9 again. There was one point that he mentioned: We need to let go of our right in order to save a soul. This confirmed that I did it correctly and I've to continue doing this. An incident happened to me lately, and i wanted to pursue further but somebody asked me to let go and she said subject closed. And I let it go. I did not feed my desire by pursuing the truth to justify myself. I did it! Though I was not quite happy about it.

Imagine, if i fight back, what will happen? If I keep looking for justice, what will happen? I will only show them my selfishness instead of peacemaker. I really hope that they will come to know the Lord one day!

I really thank God for this confirmation and I hope and pray that God will continue to working in me so that I can be a better person. Sigh... It's tough though!