Not offended but thanks!

Thanks for you comments. Not offended at all for I've already known all that you have said. Read that from a book called How to Act Right When Our Spouse Acts Wrong and some other books. I'll tell people the same thing as well when i can think straight. Hahaha... But when you are in that situation you might think differently. Just like the stories I've heard from you guys. If i were you no matter how closed i am with that friend, I'll find opportunity to tell how i feel. i find it easy but you find it hard. you see? It's like people know God is good but they just can't accept Him. And like people who knows bible very well but they just can't do what God is asking them to do. The most important thing is we tried and we are still trying. I think show faces is a very spontaneous reaction (of course it's wrong). Especially towards some people who are real fake. Either I'll show faces or in fact most of the time I'll keep quiet when i see something which i do not quite like.

Em..maybe you misunderstood me. I hate it when those who judge me are Christians. And i found that we are influenced by what the bible called weeds in the kingdom. I know we are still human. I cannot judge that they did not try to stay focus as well. I am just expressing my frustration towards this. And in fact i really know myself that's why when i feel that i myself cannot take it anymore I'll walk away so that I'll not be tempted to EXPLODE.

4 ways to handle temptation are:
1. Knows God's Word
2. Avoid the Temptation
3. Say NO
4. Run away.

I found myself in a bad situation so i better leave right? I made my choice but people may see it as mood swing you know. That's why i some times keep quiet suddenly. With or without problem my face is also like that, fierce and melancholic. Even your mum can show temper when she is not in good mood you know. When she does that I'll get very frustrated i do not understand why. Even though her temper was not towards me.

So it's a very normal thing. All i hope is no gossips( i think i cant avoid la). If really need to know ask m,though not on the spot, few days later when you think i feel better. They have a choice to gossip or not to also. I do not expect it from people who do not know me. Say all they want, i really do not care. I just expect those who knows me do it. And for my part yeah I've a choice too. I'm still trying.

You know, the most difficult moment is when you are making that choice. That struggle can kill. Let say when you are angry but you know you should not lose temper. But on the other hand you are too angry, you really feel like letting it off. That's the most dangerous moment where i always fall! Sigh...

That's what make me walk away, keep quiet or make some noises out of no where, talk nonsense excessively or insensitive towards jokes etc!

I should not expect anything from people, i should focus on God himself. Walking in his way and learn bit by bit on the way to eternity. Since the month your mum left, i learned a lot and gained a lot as well. Understanding between some people and me. Learned to calm myself and talk about the matter other days. I'm always a person who can't bear problem in relationships with anybody unsolved. But i am more able now after God's tough training.

Hahaha...i still remember the day we stayed in the office until very late. Since then i learned all these. Remember what i told you about one of my friends? And God used him to teach me.

And i talked to your mum the other day about what had happened years ago. This reinforced what God had taught me. Problems can't always be solved on the spot. It might take years. I guess our chat do help us in our work now and in future. I mean your mum and i.