Second Injury

It's straighter when I put it on a flat surface.

This was what happened to me. I couldn't recall how it happened. I can only remember a great pain rushed in after the score. Yes! It was Frisbee again, this time is on my finger. The Frisbee hit my finger after the score. After I caught the Frisbee, my finger went crooked. It was so painful that I kept holding it and rubbing it, trying to make it straight again.

I was kinda worry about it. I told one of them but he did not really bother. He asked me to show Kok Ming. Well, it's Ok. I just wanted to release my worries because I couldn't make it straight no matter how. One of the girls helped me rub my finger also, trying to make it straight again. Kok Ming was still playing football.

After another few games, Kok Ming passed by, I showed him. He pulled it so hard to make it straight, it was so painful until I beat him. I tried to make it straight as he told me to until the game ended. But it was still very painful. It was even more painful after the game. I couldn't stop frowning.

When I lifted my palm, this ring man just couldn't relax himself.

The bruise started to appear. Still crooked and it was getting worse. Until I met Kok Ming, he went to Pharmacy to get bandage and stuff. Then he bandaged my finger. He needed to press the crooked part to make it straight like the tongue depressor. Oh man, I yelled because of the pain. I yelled because of pain for the first time.

I tried hard to control and to endure because I did not want to make him nervous as he loves me. It's hard to see your loved ones in pain. Phew! This bothers me so much because I'm afraid that that part of my finger cannot bend anymore. My motor skill is already very bad. I really do not hope to become worse.

My ligament is torn according to Kok Ming, still under observation, but most probably no fracture, hope so!

I can really, really feel what the Bible describes, when one part of your body suffers, all parts suffer together. It's SO real to me now. This finger seems unimportant, in fact it's quite important. It's hard to turn the knob of the door without this finger; it's hard to unbutton when I need to go toilet; it's hard to type; it's hard to hold things especially heavy things; children are curious about it and some of them thought it's a new toy and started pulling it; I couldn't carry tables etc. SAD!

Thanks to my colleagues who helped me a lot today. It was a hectic day. All of us were so busy! I claimed to be observant but only today I knew that when I need to go out of a room, I need to use my left hand to turn the knob. And when I need to go in, I gotta use my right hand to turn it or press it. I did not know before this. There are many others things that we left out, we miss just because we are too used to our way of life. We become less sensitive towards certain things and we maybe too fast in our action that we miss God's whisper.

I always admire babies and toddlers. They are very sensitive and alert. Their eyes can actually see what we can't see or what we do not bother to see or hear or whatever. Toddlers tend to pick up things and put into their mouths. They can see very tiny dirt on the floor before any adults can see it. Usually when adults see it is when they notice their kids chewing something or when they see them putting their finger into their mouths.

Maybe we should learn from the kids. Heard of kids' instinct? They have this special gift which they can sense how you are feeling especially towards them. If you are afraid of them, they will tend to bully you. If you do not like them, they can also feel it. If you reject them in your heart, they can also feel it. I'm not sure why they can do that. Maybe they are so pure, not like us, being polluted by fear, pride and etc.

Let's have a child's like heart and a child's like faith together!