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When Others Were Busy Saying Goodbye...

Thomas and family were in town last weekend. They wanted to go Cameron Highlands. Off we went on the day we had planned earlier. Our first destination was to the Sungai Palas Tea Plantation. We planned to have tea and some bakeries as well. Our second destination was the Strawberry Farm where you can pick your own strawberries. Yeah, we went there too. The kids were so excited when they were plucking the strawberries, especially the little girl. After that we were supposed to go to the Cactus Valley. We went to the place but we did not enter the valley. We were at other "departments". We actually planned to have tea at a cafe called Strawberry Moment, but they were too hungry that they ordered food from our last stop. There are a few things under the same farm/place. There is a strawberry farm, a cactus, tomato farm and flower farm. Ahh... I think that was the place where the Hydroponic vegetables are.

After having some food there, we started our journey back to Ipoh. It was around 5. 30pm. In the beginning of the drive, I was still feeling fine. However, when came to those super winding roads, I started to feel like vomiting. I really could not take it. I finally requested to stop the car, still did not expect myself to vomit. Not even a minute, I jumped out from the car and vomited. The strawberry yogurt and ice cream that I just ate were all thrown out from my stomach. *sweat* I felt better after throwing out though.

The little boy knew that I vomited. When we reached the hotel, everyone was busy saying goodbye. Everyone was out of the car besides me. I just opened the door to say bye. The little boy, Thomas' son, came near my door but did not say anything. He looked like he wanted to say anything. So, I asked him whether he enjoyed the trip up there. At first he said no then he said yes. After that, he asked me, why did I vomit, I explained to him and he nodded his head . He was bothered I think as everyone was fine except me. I am weak. Arghhh!!! I felt warm and sweet when he came and spoke to me showing concern to me. What a nice and caring kid! At first he was not really talking to us even when we asked him things. The ice broke when we talked about his 一飞冲天。Haha... Then we talked about Toy Story in the car as we were on the way to Camerons. :D

Thank God it was a safe trip!

What Baggage Are You Carrying That You Do Not Want?

Do you feel like putting out a For Sale sign to rid yourself of baggage you no longer want, whether that be sins, personalities, quirks, annoyances, obligations, heartaches, or ineffective relationships? Be honest about what your "trash removal" wish would be. Today is the day to let go of anything you don't want, whether it is realistic or not-or whether having it in your life is your fault or not. One word of caution: You may not want to list today a cross that Jesus has asked you to bear; for example, being criticized for your faith. Or, if you are thinking of jettisoning something that God may actually want you to keep- your marriage vows, for instance- hold on. Don't be like Jonah in the Bible story that follows! Be sure you are in agreement with God about what you write. Let Him speak to you today about what He wants you to get rid of as soon as possible.

I read this this morning from my devotional materials. It was like speaking to me so much. I have been carrying baggages that I don't want and some baggages maybe what God wants me to continue carrying. This is really the right time for me to figure out what I should carry and what I shouldn't. Hope this will encourage some of you too.

God bless!

*Extracted from Praying For Purpose For Women.*

Just deleted a silly post. I am really silly when I am so frustrated and so angry with things. But really thank God for His grace and mercy. Hope I'm grown a little bit stronger instead of running back to my own shell again. *phew*

Hmm... Next time I should sleep when I am upset. Sigh... Please oh God teach me and help me learn, learn to be strong at all time no matter how tired I am, no matter how terrible the feeling is. Please let me be strong enough to handle it and help me not to be too bothered and caught up by anything. Sigh... So sad that I'm such a person. But thank God I have You. Thank you Lord!!!

Reason to Be the PRETTIEST

I'm not sure if this reason is valid. Not long ago, there was a flash of thought came asking me why brides must be dressed in such a gorgeous way. Well, the general replies will be "it is only once in a life time". As for me, of course, since it is the "trend" and it is so Fairy Tale, I would want myself to look pretty and to be like the princesses in the fairy tales. It is really once in a life time unless...

I left this question behind and nearly forgot about it. Well, I guess I accepted the general view. One of the days, I was watching some of the parents in my center. Some of them have no time for themselves, no time to dress up, no time to go out with friends, no time for this and for that. Some of them even going crazy because of the problems that their kids are creating. Their kids are so active that they have to chase after them, pull them, carry them. Frankly, I pity them. I hope I'm not going to be one of them. However, it's not for me to say.

I felt that it is so unfair for them because they carried the fetus for 9 months, the reward should be getting a healthy baby but they had gotten a special one. Some of them were blamed by their family members for getting such a kid. Some of them were neglected by their husbands because of this special kids. Some of them were scolded for being not presentable and even dumb for not being able to take care or guide the kids.

Thus, I concluded, all brides should be given whatever they want for the future sacrifices for the family. I know, I know, we can only find joy in the Lord, not everyone has a God to rely on though.

Silly right? I wonder how this thought came along.

Anyway, dear husbands, please love your wife as much as possible for sacrificing their lives to give you a family. Giving birth is such a noble job, which you don't even have a chance to do it. So love them, pamper them!!! DO NOT blame them!

God Is Good All The Time

I had a very motivating news last night. Yeah! Finally, I've gotten my result for my last semester. Woot! It was really not what I expected because I had been busy and always feel tired, assignments were killing me, work was killing me and my church work too.

During that time, I agreed to help out in a camp thus I was required to plan the activities. I had no idea at all until I had finished my assignments and my exams. I was really so stressful and I nearly quited the exams. I had no confidence at all and whatever I studied I just couldn't make them stick in my mind. Sigh... It was the most stressful semester!

During the exam, I was the first one who walked out from the hall and always the last one to go in. Every few hours before the exam started, I tried to convince myself not to go for it. I tried to flee. I went in with zero confidence every time. That kind of feeling really was killing me. *phew*

Now everything is fine! God is good all the time, again and again, He proved to me that He will not let me down when I spent much time serving Him. Every time, He proved to me that He will take care of everything. I just need to give my best, my very best and He will surely do the rest!

Thanks Darling for your continuous encouragement and reasoning. Thanks SO much!!!

*Applause*

This is the second time Wan keen singing on stage. But this time, she is alone on the stage. She performed well even though she did not really practice the songs. That was the reason she could not remember the lyrics as well. She knew that she had to sing on the stage but she did not really know what was it for. Besides, this was a surprise for my parents. My mum was so touched when she was singing on the stage. Mum wept badly. I had a slide show for my parents on Wan Keen's growth. It was really hard work because bringing her up was never easy.

I knew that Wan Keen will be able to perform well. As I was preparing the slides, I was touched and tears swelled in my eyes. However, when she was singing on stage, I did not cry but I was so glad and also surprised that she could sing so clearly and loudly. I bet many were touched by her, especially those who know her and I believe her peers were amazed too. Hope and pray that God will continue to work in my parents, especially my dad. So that he will come to know Christ one day.

A Girl Without Face

Have you watched a video about a girl without face? I watched it yesterday. Hmm... What if she is my daughter? Will I be able to accept her as she is? Will I be afraid of her or will I still love her? I can't answer any of these questions because I won't know until it happens on me.

God says He makes humans according to His own image. Is the girl in the list? Is she not created after His image? Well, I'm very sure God makes every thing perfect even if she does not have a face, she is loved; she is a joy for those who met her. She is a miracle because she survived. Besides, she is a gift from God to show us that there's still love flowing in this cruel earth.

Many people will wonder why then she does not have a face? I strongly believe, it's human's fault. The technology advancement causes a lot of pollutions in the earth that used to be lovely and clean. The preservative and colouring in our food and lots more do contribute to the deformity in her. Still, God is fair. God makes her a lovely and cheerful girl.

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The Blessed Trip

Time really flies. The trip to Hong Kong ended just like that and we are back to reality. Yeah, the cruel reality which things will not change to what you wish it could be. It was indeed a good trip. I was striving hard to complete listening to those doctors talking. They were so monotonous till my mind just couldn't help but to "fish" in the hall on and off.

I managed to learn something new and something which is in the trend right now in the world of Autism. They were all talking about the Bio- medicine treatments and also the causes of Autism in kids nowadays. According to the experts, Autism can be treated by going through Bio- med treatment. A child is required to do a lot of tests and take a lot of supplements during the treatment. I kinda pity them too. The cost for this treatment is super duper expensive. Only people who are rich can have such treatment at the moment. I also learned that what kinda chemicals cause what kind of problems which led me to have to avoid certain things that we often use in daily our daily lives. Sigh...

Well... I'll just leave it to God and do my best so that my baby in future will not have to suffer and my family too do not have to suffer. Anyway, the stressful part is over and I'm glad that I got the fundamental concept of the whole thing, at least!

We departed from Ipoh at 830a. m and we reached airport near 12noon. After checking in our baggages and were waiting at the departure then only we got to know that our flight was delayed for more than 2 hours if I'm not mistaken. Hmm... By the time we reached Hong Kong was 8pm plus. This is still fine. But by the time we reached our hotel is almost 10pm! It took us one hour plus to reach the hotel from the airport because the shuttle bus stopped at many stations.

The worse thing was only when I reached Hong Kong that I realized, I had Thomas contact saved wrongly. *sweat* I was suppose to confirm with him about the dinner plan. Luckily uncle William sent me his contact and yeah, we met up for dinner because so happened he ran some errands around that area. One whole day gone just like that. *phew!*

The second day, we have to get up early in the morning because the registration was at 8am. Thank God that I was able to catch some sleep though it was the first night at the hotel. It was quite packed and quite a lot for me to digest even for the first day. The whole thing ended at 6pm. After going back to the hotel, we went out for dinner as well and I left them after the dinner as I have no choice because I needed to pass them somethings from Ipoh. I struggled so much to decide whether to meet them or not because it seemed not nice by leaving the group. At the end, I told myself not to care so much. Sigh...

The 3rd day was the end for the whole conference. We literally dragged our body up. By the way, their 5.30 am is like 7am , 8am in Malaysia. It annoyed us because it woke us up earlier than we should. After the conference, my colleague and I planned to go to the Temple Street and the Ladies Market since we are already in Hong Kong. The other group planned to have duck as dinner. However, our plan changed to Cheung Chau as my colleague's niece called her up and invited her there. Thus, 3 of us who are not from the Cheng's family went with her. We had a great seafood dinner over there and we had great experience and knowledge about that place. I really like that place because the air there is fresher and there is not car moving around, thus less pollution. That place is not so congested as well. Too bad we went there at night if not we will be able to see more of Cheung Chau.

When we were on the way back to Central, my friend called me up to check my location. When I told him that we went into Cheung Chau, he sounded shocked. He must be wondering how come we are so capable that we are able to find our way there. Haha... I'm so glad that my friend met us for breakfast the next day. We had the simplest but best breakfast after so many days in Hong Kong. Then we started our journey to the Ladies Market and other streets around that area by ourselves. We were scolded even when we just looked at the goods displayed at the stalls at Ladies Market. WT*!!! This was the first time being scolded for not buying!

After walking so much, my body finally surrender. It couldn't stand anymore as it was so dehydrated a and so lack of sleeps. I finally fell sick on the last day in Hong Kong and my face just couldn't hide the discomfort. Overall, it was a great trip and thanks to my friends who made time for me and my friend! I am even blessed with their presence.

The Farewell Speeches :P

Yo girls, this is it. It's kinda hard to upload them in Facebook. Thus, it's in my blog. LOL! Hope that you girls really enjoyed the work in NH and praying that they have taught you much about life. Life isn't about perfect or imperfect in the world standard, it's about how you appreciate what you are having now. The kids may not have what we have, but they are the most innocent, true as you girls had said. Truly hope that the kids have inspired you enough to move on to you next stage of life and I believe, they will remember you in their lives. Come back often during your break. We will be more than happy to receive you. It is indeed a great joy and experience working with you girls. God bless your journey. Till we meet. :D

Proverbs 31: 10- 31 The Wife of Noble Character

¹⁰ ^{a]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[a]} A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.

¹¹ Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.

¹² She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.

¹³ She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.

¹⁴ She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.

¹⁵ She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.

¹⁶ She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.

¹⁷ She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.

¹⁸ She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.

¹⁹ In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.

²⁰ She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.

²¹ When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.

²² She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.

²³ Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.

²⁴ She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.

²⁵ She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.

²⁶ She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.

²⁷ She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.

²⁸ Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:

²⁹ "Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."

³⁰ Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

³¹ Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

I can truly see this nobleness in my mum. She is blameless and work day and night for all of us. So that we will not feel hungry, cold or lack of anything. Will I be able to be such a woman too? I often feel that being a female is not easy. When her child is admitted to the hospital, she has to be there no matter which ward the child is in. She has to be there wherever her child is, be it in school, at home, play and etc. Even if her physical is not there with her child, her heart is there because she will never feel safe for letting her child to be alone. May the hard work of our mothers and all ladies be appreciated.

Wong Jing Yi

Jing Yi is my student. She has been with us for almost 9 years. She is a very active and helpful girl. Her hearing is impaired but she can talk quite a lot though not fluent. She is very understanding and sensitive to her surroundings. She will report any thing to teachers especially someone is doing something nasty.

She uses sign language most of the time. She can sign well and feel very comfortable when we teachers speak to her using sign language. I'm not very good in signing. I can sign some numbers and alphabet and some simplified signing on things and actions. Since the school reopened this year, I began learning sign language from her. She was so happy that I can use sign and she is most joyous to teach me.

She is a very helpful girl. She used to help a kid who is lack of understanding and often takes care of her and guide her. She enjoys music, she can sing very well and very loudly. She is the most independent girl in the class.

On Wednesday, my superior received a call from her mom saying that she fell sick since Monday. However, she refused to see doctor and she just wanted to sleep. She did not even want to walk out of her room. She just slept and slept. Her dad pleaded 2 GP doctors near her residents to go to her house to see her daughter but none of them are willing to go no matter what. On Wednesday morning, her mom pleaded another 2 doctors but the result was still the same. At the end of the day, she called our center and we decided to go to her house and try to persuade her to go to the hospital. And we managed to get her out of her room and to the car. Since that day she was admitted. At that time, she could still complain about her pain. She responded to us when we talked to her. But after the operation, about 6 hours she went into coma until now.

I did not believe she is in such condition until I saw it with my own eyes. She has no respond now. She is not moving, she is so still and according to KM, she is not on 3 types of medication, if a patient is given these 3 types, the condition is usually not good. :( Sigh... I still can't believe that she will be leaving us soon because I believe that there will be miracles. And I don't believe that things changed so fast. I'm so confused. The one lying there is so not her. Sigh...

Let Me Forget About It!

I have a lot of unforgettable fear. When I was young, I used to be "bullied" by CHICKENS! Especially roosters. When some roosters saw me, they would run towards me and fly over me to peck me. *I hate them!* This is what caused me to be SO afraid of two- legged animals.

There was another thing that I won't be able to forget for the rest of my life. It's about CHICKEN again. I remember there was once, my mum tried to kill a chicken. Her skill was bad. After she chopped that chicken's neck, the chicken was still alive. At that time, my mum did not tied its legs up. Thus, it was fleeing with its blood shed all over the kitchen. I was SO terrified.

Lately, my mum killed a few chickens for Chinese New Year. On morning, when I was still sleeping, I heard the "yell" of the chicken and I could hear the sound of the flapping wings. I ignored as I did not know that my mum was killing the chicken. Last Saturday, I had class in the morning, so I had to wake up early. I heard those noise again. After a while the noise was gone so I thought it was the right time for me to go out. When I saw my mum, she was sitting there pulling off the chicken's feathers. I screamed! From that day onwards I dare not walk pass the place where the chickens were killed.

I kept trying to overcome my fear, I kept praying. However, I failed! I was too terrified. My mind kept repeating the sounds of the chickens and it kept on visualizing what I saw that day. Grrrr...!!! A few days later, I felt better. Who knows I saw the feathers that my mum kept. She intended to make something, I don't what is it called, but it's something that people played in the old days. A traditional game. The feather freaked me out. :( My days really passed like hell.

Today, I feel much much better! At least when I walk pass the place where the chickens were killed I no longer have fear. I hope the days to come will be the same. My fear is so real. I can understand the man who vomited even though he had recovered. I guess my memory is too good to remember what I should not. :(

心愛

I'm so touched by this story. Again and again. Aren't we the same? Some people helped us out of love, unfortunately we some times view the sacrificial love that people show to us the other way round.

I was being blamed by a mother of my student. She blamed me for suggesting her to put her son into the mainstream this year. She was too anxious until she stressed herself so much and she stressed us out too. She could call us few times a day. I tried my best to help but at the end I was blamed. When somebody told me how she complained about me at my back, I wasn't really angry. I just felt that she is sick. Well, though I was not angry, I start to watch my words and suggestions.

I feel that we can be blinded by our ego and anxiety some times. When we are in denial stage, we tend to push the blame to others so that we can feel better. If we keep doing this, we will lose a lot of precious friends and loved ones. That feeling will be worst than when we are "invalid". Love those who love you and do not reject love that is shown. Show love to others and never expect return. We will be happier if we can do so.

The Special Two Whom Most Will Miss

These are the two, one had already left us to Australia and another one will be leaving real soon to the same place too. These are the two sisters whom most of us will miss. Some people may think that my statement has some favoritism elements, however, it does not.

I believe in my statement because they are the ones I will miss too. No matter where most of us from the church went, no matter what kinda activities we joined, they were always there. They were hyper, not only at church but at school too. See, my statement makes sense because they were there (anywhere) all the time. Thus, all of us will definitely miss them much! When I thought of our every Sunday BUG game, I thought of them and I knew that this time round, they won't be there. T.T

It's indeed not easy to let these two sisters go.

No matter where they are, they will always be there some where in our hearts. Yeah, there's always a place for them in our hearts. My dear sisters, take good care of yourself and I believe God will be there to help you through all the storms to come and you will be filled with love, joy and peace again and again.

Are You Sick?

I am so glad to meet a friend that I knew from Indonesia last year. I am really joyous though I did not have much contact nor conversation with him during the Indonesia ministry trip last year. I'm so glad maybe it's because I couldn't believe that God will let us meet once again and to worship together once again.

Today he was invited to share on his experiences in different countries with us during our night worship. He was sharing about healing and how God healed him when he did not realized that he was "sick" spiritually. It was indeed a good sharing and I was reminded once again that our God is a great Provider.

He was very animated when he was sharing. I was staring at him imagining him in such situation. But something that he shared from the bible really caught my attention. He shared on John 5: 1- 9 as shown below.

John 5: 1- 9

The Healing at the Pool

¹Some time later, Jesus went up to Jerusalem for a feast of the Jews. ²Now there is in Jerusalem near the Sheep Gate a pool, which in Aramaic is called Bethesda^{a]" style="line-height: 0.5em; ">[a]} and which is surrounded by five covered colonnades. ³Here a great number of disabled people used to lie—the blind, the lame, the paralyzed.^{b]" style="line-height: 0.5em; ">[b]} ⁵One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. ⁶When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, "Do you want to get well?" ⁷"Sir," the invalid replied, "I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred. While I am trying to get in, someone else goes down ahead of me." ⁸Then Jesus said to him, "Get up! Pick up your mat and walk." ⁹At once the man was cured; he picked up his mat and walked. The day on which this took place was a Sabbath,

I highlighted three points which caught my attention. The passage mentioned that that was a place where many disabled people laid. This man was lying there for 38 years but he did not get a chance to get into the pool to be healed. When Jesus asked him whether he wanted to get well (that's a stupid question, yeah), he said that nobody helped him into the pool when the water was stirred. I sat there thinking, most of the people there were sick, they were all unwell and awaiting to be lifted , to be healed. Then a question occurred in my mind,"Why can't the others just give him a hand since they were going through the same problem and they desired for the same thing- healing?"

I was impressed by this thought that "a sick will not be able to lead another who is sick". Thus, that man was there for 38 years until someone perfect came to him to lead him to the pool. Last year end, my soul was sick. Though I had my holidays, I still felt very tired and moody. Maybe it was because of the busy period and tiredness with work, church and studies. When it was near January this year, especially when I started working again with the children and parents, a thought came to me telling me that I must lift my spirit if not I will not be able to help the kids and the parents. I told myself that I did not have time to be moody. From that day onwards, I was lifted and am enjoying my work now.

I do believe that the man who laid there for 38 years was because of this reason- the blind will not be able to lead the deaf. For those who are keen to help people, to reach out to people and to be a comfort to people, I am sure that we should keep our soul and spirit healthy so that we will be able to help, comfort and guide the lost effectively. Let's encourage, pray and motivate one another so that our soul and spirit will be well and ready for the purpose that God has planned for us.

Something Heavenly :D

Thursday wasn't a good day. I bet I was warned by God through my dream but I did not know what is it all about until everything fell into place. I always have this problem about my dream. Hmm... Maybe it's a gift or maybe it is not. Many people would say that I think too much and not many, or I would say there are only one or two who believe that what I dream will turn out, and it's always something not good, but will be made good.

I dreamed of one of my students. He is not able to speak due to his hearing impairment. I do not think that he will even speak unless there is a miracle. However, in my dream he was able to speak. I was so happy in my dream and I even asked the parents to continue to motivate him and I rejoiced with them.

This dream was not any dream that will wake me up suddenly as it's not scary thus I was not quite disturbed by it. I nearly forgotten what I had dreamed about until when I was doing my devotion that morning, my mind reminded me of that dream. I was a bit confused as I did not know if it was real or it was just a dream. After pondering for a while then I told myself for sure, it's a dream. I carried on with my reading.

That child came with the father during the session later in the morning. Nothing happened. However, what my colleague told the father disturbed me as she was giving wrong informations. On top of that she did not know the purposes of what we have been doing. I was still cool until she asked us for one of the teaching aids which has been there on the shelves for 7 years. Then I started shooting her. I wasn't angry, I just wanted to tease her but somehow her excuse for not knowing that it was there and have never ever used it (which she had used it before), frustrated me. My teases became scolding.

My tone of voice was bad. I felt bad after that too. For the rest of the day, we did not talk because she seemed angry with me. So I have decided to apologize for my tone of voice but not what I have said. I kept telling myself that even if I am the head of the place, I need to humble myself and admit what I have done wrong. I don't want to run away from it and I do not want to tarnish God's name! So I was struggling. Struggled because I was so afraid that the situation will become even worse. I was feeling so uneasy. However, I have peace. I text another colleague telling her what I had planned to do and asked her to be there earlier so that she will be there to control the situation or give input for our conversation. Of course, I asked her to pray for us.

*Phew* Finally, it was Friday. I apologized before our open prayer and explained to her why I got frustrated and taught her how to answer questions to avoid confusion in the parents. The whole thing went well and I really thank God for that. Thanks for those who prayed for me/us! Thank you so much! A video to share with you. One part of the lyrics say," Whatever You (God) doing inside of me, it feels like chaos somehow there's peace and it's hard to surrender what I can't see but I'm giving into something heavenly!"

Act Now!

As I was studying today, I found a quote from my textbook. It goes like this:

"All great languages undergo change. Those languages which resist the spirit of change are doomed and will never produce great harvest of thought and literature." -Rabindranath Tagore

This quote clearly defines the need of a language to change according to time, in order to survive. I am so attracted to this quote because I think living a life holds the same principle. If we refuse to change we will not be able to get more in life. If we are not planning to change the way we live our lives, the way we look at things and the way we carry o

urselves, we will sit in a well forever, looking up to the sky every time, wishing and hoping that one day that one day we can jump out from there. By wishing and hoping will not make any changes without practical action.

When we talk about change, we need to act because the word "change" itself is a verb, an action word. Without action, we will not be able to get out from the pit where we used to be. It is a total impossible. Some people will not be able to survive in certain places because they refuse to change. Some people keep living in the past and refused to change and choose not to believe that their life will be different with the right and bold step forward.

If we keep on staying in the past and keep wishing to be somebody without any practical action, sooner or later, we will be cut off like the unfruitful branch of a tree. Thus, do you wanna improve to be fruitful or to be cut off or dropped off from where you are. The patience from human is limited. When everyone else is improving but you are still stagnant and refuse to do what you should, no one can help but yourself. People have their own set of problems thus it'll be tedious if their encouragement and patience keep being rejected. Get up and WALK!

Stirve Like A Cockroach

As I was staring at the pail of laundry just now in the bathroom. A picture came to my mind. What picture? Ha... A picture of a cockroach striving to stay alive when it accidentally falls into the water. It's very funny to have such picture popped up to my mind out of no where.

Thus, I concluded that every living thing will try to strive to live especially when they are facing problems in life. However, many times, many of us will tend to give up especially after trying so hard but the result is still the same/ still disappointing. It is just like the cockroaches, every one of them will strive to save their own life when they drop into the water. However, not everyone of them will be able to get out from the water. Some even die there. But at least they have tried their best until the very end of their lives.

If a cockroach can strive until the very end of it's life, why can't we? We are to live our life to the fullest, if not we will regret later. The result is not really important, but the effort and the process are the gist of our lives which will make us stronger and mature; we gain wisdom from the experiences too. Besides, we will be able to use all the experiences to comfort others and to advice others. Try your best and let God do the rest! Gambateh!

* I believe there is a reason for this post. *

Don't Give UP

The Parable of the Persistent Widow (Luke 18:1- 8)

¹Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. ²He said: "In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared about men.³And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, 'Grant me justice against my adversary.'

⁴"For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, 'Even though I don't fear God or care about men, ⁵yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won't eventually wear me out with her coming!' "

⁶And the Lord said, "Listen to what the unjust judge says. ⁷And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? ⁸I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?"

Because of her persistence, she was finally granted justice by an evil judge. This story about persistence will remind us to pray continually with expectant faith.

When we persevere to the end, our character improved along the way. God has assigned to us certain purposes in life for which he expects loyalty and commitment. The attitude that grows through perseverance is, there's no turning back from what God asks!

Romans 5: 3- 4

Not only so, but we rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, character; and character; hope.

平靜風浪後現代版 (Calming the Storm)

These were the group of Hongkies who came to our church during Christmas to have fellowship with us and they had some football trainings and tournament in Ipoh too. This is one skit that they performed during the prize giving night. They have 12 in their team.

Watch closely! Some one fell down when he came out from the back stage. LOL! I only got to know him when we brought them out for lunch one day. During that time, he was complaining about his ankle. He gave me an impression that he is so 'niang' as in very sissy. I was thinking in my heart,"Hey, come on! You are a footballer eh! Little pain also cannot bear?" :P I also remembered that somebody said that he did not rest properly that's why the pain is still there. Another thing that I remembered was he took a few pictures with all the girls who were in that room that night.

Though I don't really know him, I feel that he has the gift of cheering up people around him. This is a gift that I wish to have. I hope that people around me will be happy. But, I don't have such gifting from God. I really hope that he will use it wisely, use it to comfort the heartbrokens.

The Amazing Love of God

I am not a person who really love Chinese but I really find this interesting. I always like it when it explains how the Chinese Character come about. Chinese words are very artistic! Besides this website also explains about the amazing love of God. Cool! Do have a look at it!

http://www.wbschool.org/Chinese.swf

FILL MY HEART WITH JOY AGAIN LORD I PRAY

God says,"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. BUT TAKE HEART! I HAVE OVERCOME THE WORLD!"

I am really not in good shape. I cannot find myself. I cannot see the beauty that God had created in me. I do not have the patient that I used to have, I cannot tolerate and I just shut off when I am there. Sigh... I dislike going there. I really dislike it. Father God!!! Can you show me your way? I know You have gone through it. I know it's between me and myself. Help me out of the situation. Help me! I have no strength to hold on to Your verse above anymore. Give me rest! Give me peace! Give me a way! I don't wanna let my heart grow cold, I really don't want! I want the joy of serving you again. I want joy! Change the way I think, wash my brain O God! I don't wanna be a clown. Give me rest tonight and comfort me Lord! I will stand up again with Your help! I know You are always there just like the song had said, whatever troubles that I am going through now are nothing compared to Yours. But I am really tired. Lift me Lord! Get me ready to face the challenges once more. Soon, it'll be another year end, and I will be safe and sound again.

No Time is A Proven Excuse

Few weeks ago, I had a chat with a friend. Our conversation alerted me. I blurted a lot of things that I unexpected myself to. Hmm... I was alerted that we cannot serve God when we are free. We won't be free until the end of the world. All of us are busy with our work, our studies, our family, our friends and activities. We won't be free forever!

Well, I kinda know what I meant but after Fei Wong a.k.a Alan Wong's sharing on Saturday, I understood it fully. We will never be free to serve God because, 1. We won't have time if we don't spare the time for His work; 2. We will be stretched when we serve even when we seem to have no time.

No time- is a proven excuse. I'm guilty of it. And his sharing really pointed out my selfishness and laziness. HE slapped hard on my face.

The Surprises In Times of Trouble

I can't help but to be touched by this song. Indeed, I had gotten a lot of surprises in times of trouble. Hope that this song will touch you too.